Sunday my lazy chill out day but today is a wee bit different . As its 16 years ago around 18.16 hours since my life was changed in a way. I not asked for but it really did happen to me. Driving home from work 1.06.98 around 18.00hrs when a bus hit me car. Did not help it been raining hard and roads flooded aswell.But to this day the accident was not my fault at all but it killed me twice but was lucky to keep my ugly face.Thank god ;-)
Looking back this last 16 years of my life whats been going. This last week just not been good as I wrote in last post got a permanent job but it kicked me in the teeth on the second introduction day when was called from area manager to say there was no job as cut backs. Will tell you more in post in the next few weeks when I write.As still a lot to be sorted out about what Advance security done to me. So this last week not been to good to me and doesant help with around 18.16 hrs today is the 16th year of the crash what changed my life.
Mind you the certain it after the crash killed me more than the crash did to me. That it nearly succeeded in doing that but I still had some strength and courage left in me to get away from the it.Did that and my daughter who I would do anything for knew that her dad would do.After so long after accident got away from it and my daughter was first priority in my life.The it tried to kill me more she couldn't break the bond between dad and daughter. That got the it even more angry and still couldn't do anything to get at me apart from hurting her daughter even more to get at me.In the end up my daughter was made in full custody to me.So with Diane being around 6 years old her old dad brought her up alone.I had to move back home to where I come from. To restart my life from scratch.
As the years went on me getting back on my feet but still certain it and its out there knocking me down.But what they did not relise I was getting stronger and back standing on my feet.The it+its could not knock me down or bully me like they use.As the strong Adrian was not vulnerable like he was after car accident and what the it did to me in the past.
Even this last week with getting knocked back by the fake real job from Advance securities.I did not bite and will not. As its nothing to me.Just next work I get offered I will not tell anyone I got it until I get it all in black and white and iam working for them.Mind you the last 2 days been a wee bit black and fronted after me telling everyone I had full time work.The last 2 weeks to tell them now I haven't got the work as it was fake full time work from Advance securities.
So another wee blip to try and knock me down but its not succeeded. As I know I will get a better job out there in that big bad world.
Been reading back through my blog since I started to write it and hell things been up and down like a yoyo in my life.Yes the good bad and ugly times the last 10 years been writing on my blog.You can go back read it all if you are brave enough. Infact some of it I have to read a few times getting own memory to think about what was going hehehe.
Now you will relise why iam expendable.After being knocked so far down in the deepest rut.My own real life was so far down and out it was bad.But I picked myself up and got out of the deep rut what the its put me in after car accident.Now a days real me is closed of as its still try and knock me down but do not succeed.Even this last week about the fake work from Advance securities i got and then they kicked in the teeth by them by saying no work.It did not knock me down at all.Well just a wee bit being honest.Even some work what i will do as long as its completed no matter if I come back dead or alive.As that is for work I will get used and abused as long as I get paid for it when its completed.But this last week was a real fake job the lead me up the garden path then sxxx on me.That is not a logical thing to do to me.Ball is in cats corner now.Time to play and I will with that company.
As for this evening will be with my dad and have a wee dram or two with him.Best way to finish my lazy chill out day of the week with my dad.
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