If you not been reading my post on here of my blog this is just wee bit about me.
After whats gone on so far in my past i have been pushed and pushed so close to the edge but never has any it ever got me to go over the edge totally in my life.Looking back on myself the last 16 years been a fight for me to get my life back on the right track.As far as i now i nearly have achieved that.But as each day goes along another it joins the club.After car accident nearly 16 years ago and to get my life back on track taken it out of me.But i keep going and not all the time i get things write and wrong.Moved back here to home to get my life back together and my mum and dad where brilliant and they helped me the best they could.At the same time i never forgot about my daughter i seen her every weekend and after the court cases she was made in my full custody.As her mother was the it from hell.At same time i was still getting my life back together.But a lot of its out there did not accept that at all.Infact around 8 years ago i was hit and knocked out by an it and never guess what other its joined in.But after being hit by a bus in car accident and dead 2 times aswell.The it and its who did that to me that night.Otherwise what goes around comes around.
Nearly 5 years ago not a very good year my daughter is doing ok here as no sight of here mother it from hell.My Jerry lee in around the beginning of July he was not well and couldnt figure out what was wrong with him.Then he started to bring blood up.So straight to see the vet and straight away took tests but at same time in Jerry Lees eyes i could tell he was dying.One of his kidneys collapse.It was killing him and i had to let Jerry lee go the safe place where he would not be in pain.Around a few months before that with Jerry my mum was not right and mum had alzheimers.With going to see mum each day with dad in the care home.With Jerry going to heaven he was my main back bone with mum being ill and in care home.So with each day mum gradually deteriorated each day.In october mum was nearly at the heavens door.But mum pasted away on the 11.10.09.Now with both my back bones away from my life.Time for me to start again.My dad is now 89 and he has mum at home with him and in his heart forever.
My daughter left home and went to college and tried to build the bridge between her it mother.But never worked out.My Diane is now nearly 20 and she is doing ok and she knows her old dad is here for her all the time for her.
As time went along getting my life back together making me stronger with myself.So that no it can get the better of me again.But the last few months the its have done and they tried to knock me down but not succeed.With every job i apply for they ask for my work history and i write and tell them all what i can do.But when they see that the last 16 years my work dates do not match.they think straight away he is a lazy person as he has never worked for long.They do not read all the application they just stick me in the bin.I get that a lot and its really annoying but does not push me to closer to the edge.Just proves that there is a lot of its out there and they will try it on innocent people all the time.The it and its are just bullies and they get away with it until they walk in to me like iam a brick wall.After all they only sit behind a computer and just press the buttons and they do not give fxxx who ever they bin.
You see every job i go for infact 83 jobs i applied for since the start of 2014 and only got a couple of replies to say sorry you not qualified this time.Or they say when you send application in if you do not hear from us within 5 days means you not successful.You see i want work i need work to pay for things to live on.But when you get treated by its out there.You know chance of getting work.Its an uphill fight every day in life and the its make it even harder in your life.Thats why like sof me and for whats happened in my apst makes me stronger to stop the its getting at me.But the last few weeks they nearly did get me to break but my inner strength stopped me from breaking.You see i do an odd time get down and just step back and get my head clear what is going on.I have my own way of getting the negative vibes out my body.No its not drink what i turn to.So much going so far this year for me.One bonus is that my team Liverpool are playing much better than the last years.So much so after beaten Man Utd the other day i said it for the first time for a lot of years.We just might thats a strong might win the premiership title this year.We are playing like a how the Liverpool team should play.Yes still not completely 100% in the team but very close to be.
If you have read my past posts on here you will sort of know a bit for the good i hope.If you havent and reading this for the first time.When i say it or its in my posts they mean waste of good fucking skin.I have my own way with certain words what i use when iam talking about it and its on here or for real.The last post i wrote about Boots they will be a lot more to write about Boots all depending whats happens on the 28.03.14 So i cant write anything more at moment about Boots until after that date.Now its time for my garlic pork with onion rings and then bread and butter pudding.
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