The last week things sort of going good for me.One thing was on tuesday 25th my daughter Diane was 19.Yes its been nineteen years since my daughter born in to my hands.Nineteen years gone so quick since Diane was born.Looking back at whats gone in my life in those 19 years.So much happening with my life being changed around especially 15 years ago when it got changed without me knowing.No use going about that you can read about in the past blogs what i have wrote on here.
This last week with Diane a year older infact iam getting older myself aswell.When being ill 3 weeks ago its taken to this last few days to get all my strength back in me.By its been hard work getting my strength back.My body can feel it but feels good doing the work outs as i can make my body work harder now.
Now even my one and only brain cell is working (still cant find it) With wanting funding etc to get started into my work.Me brain cell be on turbo boost this last week.Been getting into that deep dark world of business funding etc.Its not everyones cup of tea but its a great challenge for me.To prove to myself i can do it no matter what anyone else says at all.Yes had a few knocks down this last week but thats just part of the parcel.No i did not bite or blow my top off.One call the other day talking about funding typical the person listened to me but as soon i was picking up negative vibes from that person.When they clicked in me knew that phone call was going no where.Yes i was right so about 20 mins on phone got me no where at all apart from me blowing even more dust off my memory banks in my brain.To know to expect time to get wasted by the its.As for me i do multi task in in all types of work.Yes i can do all my own accounts etc to clean sewage from drains to driving.Reason being since i left school i work in so many different types of work.With multi tasking in work been great.As i have learned a lot more that i thought i would about different work.One thing though when my life got changed.People wouldnt accept the way i was after change.It took coming back home to get restart to build my life for the second time.Even now i get the same reaction of certain its out there that they dont accept me as to who iam now.
You see i have accepted iam a wee bit different than i was yes iam getting older thats reason why ;-)
But it and its out there when they just look at my paperwork then they accuse me but hold on its the its who has not got the right paper work as they didnt have the right dates on them.You see one department does not talk to another department on the same office floor.They just make there own decisions up no matter what happens to the innocent ones in the real world.
Customer service is some of my work what i do when required.Before credit crunch kicked in 5 years ago.A lot of customer service where corrupt.I did help to get a bit of it sorted out.But when the big credit crunch kicked in a lot of companies closed.I lost work.But nowadays the customer service on certain companies call centres etc are still corrupt and no one is sorting them out.Then they use and abuse you and they do not give a xxxx what they do to you.The ones who are at me at moment until friday afternoon when i got the ammunition from them why and the resaon why they where chasing after me.Hell its so simple in front of there eyes and they just didnt see it.They even got debt chasing company after me aswell.But with the complete 100% evidence i have against them now.Think when i see them tomorrow they will will want to hide in the cupboard after being black and fronted.
Yes its my last lazy sunday chill out day of June 2013 so now to get chilled out tunes on.Cup of tea and of course double choc chip cookie :-)
Adrian
Sunday, 30 June 2013
Wednesday, 19 June 2013
Yes its midweek
The sun is out to play again yeeeahhhhhhhh. God it feels good with the sun out and no rain again. Anyways after the dreaded bug hit me 2 weeks ago.The last 3 years since i started to get rid of the fat a bit of fat been hanging around my waist and never could shift it.Until the dreaded bug hit me 2 weeks ago.With being grounded in bed and couldnt eat for 3 days.The fat what was clued to my waist it disappeared with being ill and not eating for 3 days.Yes its gone at last but i not a way to lose fat with not eating for 3 days!
So start of this week been doing my minimum exercises as will take time to get all my strength back up.So far going good as been doing a wee bit more on my exercises.Even swim yesterday done my 20 lengths and few more ended up doing 60 lengths.Thats a bonus for me.This morning out doing my power walk at 5.40am and felt good.Only thing was last night it was humid all night and thats crap when its like that.
So time my brain cell gets working hard again like it was before dreaded bug hit.Give myself until end of october this year to get the work what i want up and running.As for funding what i need its a mission to get it but at least iam trying.With half way through june so far my brain cell need to go in turbo drive to make things happen for me how i want it to happen for real for me.
Wednesday is here the sun is out again and time to rock and roll my brain to get things done today.
Adrian
So start of this week been doing my minimum exercises as will take time to get all my strength back up.So far going good as been doing a wee bit more on my exercises.Even swim yesterday done my 20 lengths and few more ended up doing 60 lengths.Thats a bonus for me.This morning out doing my power walk at 5.40am and felt good.Only thing was last night it was humid all night and thats crap when its like that.
So time my brain cell gets working hard again like it was before dreaded bug hit.Give myself until end of october this year to get the work what i want up and running.As for funding what i need its a mission to get it but at least iam trying.With half way through june so far my brain cell need to go in turbo drive to make things happen for me how i want it to happen for real for me.
Wednesday is here the sun is out again and time to rock and roll my brain to get things done today.
Adrian
Monday, 10 June 2013
Starting to recover at last from Bug !
Begining of last week everything going ok for me and felt so good.Tuesday was going great with sun out aswell until around 9pm the dreaded bug hit me.I just came back from dads and sat down around 9pm thought just browse on computer and watch a bit of tv aswell But just after 9pm looking at computer screen what ever bug was in me it hit me like a ton of bricks.It felt like i just had a welding flash the way my head went and my eyes screamed.I could not look at screen or tv got it hit me bad.So of to bed and with in 20 mins in bed the sweat was running out of me.The bed was soaked in sweat.Not even an hour gone by since bug hit and i was in a bad way.
All night could not sleep and just drunk hot cups of tea when i could.Wednesday no better at all. Even wednesday morning hot outside i was in a hot radox salts bath hoping to sweat bug out of me.But to no avail it never shifted at all.I could eat anything as my throat was sore and head feeling like a press on it.My eyes where all blood shot and in pain.As wednesday went by and changed and washed all my clothes and bedding.As learned from my mother when a bug gets in the house you got keep it all clean to help get rid of bug.Wednesday only could eat my porridge as my throat being to sore to eat anything hard at all.But was struggling to eat a bowl of porridge each time when i tried to.Thursday did manage some sleep but was sweating bad in bed and still not got rid of bug.My eyes no better either.Another hot bath and washed all the bedding again and still no sign of bug leaving me.Got some extra strength ibuprofen and started to take them.Hoping it would shift bug.After not eating much since tuesday dinner time.I knew the weight was dropping of me to quick.The tablets kicked in but the bug was so strong in me.It would take some shifting.Thursday night did sweat a lot in bed as i slept for a bit.Friday morning bed wet with me sweating so much.Still no sign of the bug shifting from me.As friday went by feeling a wee bit better but still couldnt eat.The ibuprofen shifted the weight of my head but my throat was even worse.
Saturday morning managed a bit more sleep last night.Didnt sweat as much in bed and my eyes where better.Seems like ibuprofen was at last was working.My throat was a bit better aswell.As saturday went on did mange to eat breakfast and lunch.So thought i need to cook dinner and hell yes i managed to eat it.
Saturday night another hot radox salts bath then hit bed and managed a good sleep.Sunday morning at last iam starting to recover from the bug what hit me.
As sunday went by i could eat and only my throat not fully recovered.So after the dreaded bug what hit me last tuesday.Is leaving my body thank god.As with losing weight being ill i have to start to build my body back up.So have to go back to my original set of exercises what i started of on a few years ago.As i have to watch my muscles as i could harm them to much.So will just try and do a bit until i get all my strength back.
So since last Tuesday the sun being out and being very hot here.There is me in bed as the dreaded bug hit me.Typical the sun out and me grounded in bed with bug.
Now with bug out of me hope this next week goes better for me.
Adrian
All night could not sleep and just drunk hot cups of tea when i could.Wednesday no better at all. Even wednesday morning hot outside i was in a hot radox salts bath hoping to sweat bug out of me.But to no avail it never shifted at all.I could eat anything as my throat was sore and head feeling like a press on it.My eyes where all blood shot and in pain.As wednesday went by and changed and washed all my clothes and bedding.As learned from my mother when a bug gets in the house you got keep it all clean to help get rid of bug.Wednesday only could eat my porridge as my throat being to sore to eat anything hard at all.But was struggling to eat a bowl of porridge each time when i tried to.Thursday did manage some sleep but was sweating bad in bed and still not got rid of bug.My eyes no better either.Another hot bath and washed all the bedding again and still no sign of bug leaving me.Got some extra strength ibuprofen and started to take them.Hoping it would shift bug.After not eating much since tuesday dinner time.I knew the weight was dropping of me to quick.The tablets kicked in but the bug was so strong in me.It would take some shifting.Thursday night did sweat a lot in bed as i slept for a bit.Friday morning bed wet with me sweating so much.Still no sign of the bug shifting from me.As friday went by feeling a wee bit better but still couldnt eat.The ibuprofen shifted the weight of my head but my throat was even worse.
Saturday morning managed a bit more sleep last night.Didnt sweat as much in bed and my eyes where better.Seems like ibuprofen was at last was working.My throat was a bit better aswell.As saturday went on did mange to eat breakfast and lunch.So thought i need to cook dinner and hell yes i managed to eat it.
Saturday night another hot radox salts bath then hit bed and managed a good sleep.Sunday morning at last iam starting to recover from the bug what hit me.
As sunday went by i could eat and only my throat not fully recovered.So after the dreaded bug what hit me last tuesday.Is leaving my body thank god.As with losing weight being ill i have to start to build my body back up.So have to go back to my original set of exercises what i started of on a few years ago.As i have to watch my muscles as i could harm them to much.So will just try and do a bit until i get all my strength back.
So since last Tuesday the sun being out and being very hot here.There is me in bed as the dreaded bug hit me.Typical the sun out and me grounded in bed with bug.
Now with bug out of me hope this next week goes better for me.
Adrian
Sunday, 2 June 2013
15 Years on since my life line was changed.
Yesterday just around 6.18pm 01.06.98.That moment in time changed my life totally.It was not planned it just happened.Last night sitting here thinking about what had happened to me then and after it aswell.For where iam now in my life now since it was changed back then.I will still say that car accident was bad but what the it did to me after the accident killed me more.Infact thinking about it if i didnt come back home the it would have killed me permanently.
Yes to restart my life from day one being back home.My mum and dad where the only ones who could help do that.They did being the best parents you can ever ask for.They knew i was not right but stood by me and helped me to be myself again.Even now looking back the last 15 years been up and down like a yoyo in my life.With all what was going on getting my life back up and running.The car accident case and my daughter court case.It was my parents who where my back bone that got me through those really hard times.
The main problem with me was that i couldnt understand why i couldnt do what i knew i could do in the past before accident.I would not accept that at all.The it then really did kill me more than accident.As the it knew the only way she could hurt me was through our daughter.As she knew i would do anything for my daughter.
My mum and dad listened to it all what was going on and they give me the best advice they could to help me.
As time went on the certain its around here just jumped on the band wagon when they knew i couldnt defend myself.The it bullies they are loved it.So more its joined the club.
To get my strength back and to ignore the its taken some time in doing.With me still knocking myself down as still would not accept that i had changed in my life.
With help of mum and dad and Jerry as time went by i started to get my life back up and running and feeling positive vibes coming back into me.
They was a certain few its who i let into my feelings.Me not thinking i was not ready for serious relationship yet.The its just bullied me more and thought i was so easy to be used.But what they didnt relise they wreck my feelings but made me even stronger and the barriers of steel around my heart now.So no it can get in to my heart and do it to me again.
The it and its out there are still there and still like an it the other day tried it on me but with me being stronger now with myself i did not bat an eye lid when the it started.Infact the it was sort of gob smacked as she couldnt bully me.You see likes of that gives me more positive vibes flow out of me.
The it what killed me more than car accident 15 years ago.Is at her it stupid games again with our daughter.With Diane being 19 this month she knows what the it is like and Diane being a young adult will make her own mind up about the it.All i can do is sit back and Diane knows her dad is there for her.
Last night my treat to myself a hot radox salts bath and real good thinking to myself.That i will try and make my own life go better each day and what i want i will make it happen and just not dream.
Yes been 15 years since my life changed and i still keep going.Taken day by day and will do the best i can to enjoy my life more in the future.
My past is the past as my past is not the future!
Adrian
Yes to restart my life from day one being back home.My mum and dad where the only ones who could help do that.They did being the best parents you can ever ask for.They knew i was not right but stood by me and helped me to be myself again.Even now looking back the last 15 years been up and down like a yoyo in my life.With all what was going on getting my life back up and running.The car accident case and my daughter court case.It was my parents who where my back bone that got me through those really hard times.
The main problem with me was that i couldnt understand why i couldnt do what i knew i could do in the past before accident.I would not accept that at all.The it then really did kill me more than accident.As the it knew the only way she could hurt me was through our daughter.As she knew i would do anything for my daughter.
My mum and dad listened to it all what was going on and they give me the best advice they could to help me.
As time went on the certain its around here just jumped on the band wagon when they knew i couldnt defend myself.The it bullies they are loved it.So more its joined the club.
To get my strength back and to ignore the its taken some time in doing.With me still knocking myself down as still would not accept that i had changed in my life.
With help of mum and dad and Jerry as time went by i started to get my life back up and running and feeling positive vibes coming back into me.
They was a certain few its who i let into my feelings.Me not thinking i was not ready for serious relationship yet.The its just bullied me more and thought i was so easy to be used.But what they didnt relise they wreck my feelings but made me even stronger and the barriers of steel around my heart now.So no it can get in to my heart and do it to me again.
The it and its out there are still there and still like an it the other day tried it on me but with me being stronger now with myself i did not bat an eye lid when the it started.Infact the it was sort of gob smacked as she couldnt bully me.You see likes of that gives me more positive vibes flow out of me.
The it what killed me more than car accident 15 years ago.Is at her it stupid games again with our daughter.With Diane being 19 this month she knows what the it is like and Diane being a young adult will make her own mind up about the it.All i can do is sit back and Diane knows her dad is there for her.
Last night my treat to myself a hot radox salts bath and real good thinking to myself.That i will try and make my own life go better each day and what i want i will make it happen and just not dream.
Yes been 15 years since my life changed and i still keep going.Taken day by day and will do the best i can to enjoy my life more in the future.
My past is the past as my past is not the future!
Adrian
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