Me being Expendable

Me being Expendable proved to me lately why iam expendable for real.Yes in my past been ups and downs in my life but at the same time being used for any purpose aswell by anyone anytime.I relised that a long time ago i was expendable and will never change in my life.When a real friend needs a ear and a shoulder to lean on me.They know iam there for them no matter what.That is real friends of mine.But i got so called real friends who do use me and jump out the frying pan straight back into the fire.They still expect me to be there for them.But me being me i know where i stand and so called friends i take a step back from them.My real friends do not do that to me and that is when they are back on there feet i feel so proud that i helped them to manage to get back on there feet.As i know they are there for me if i need them forever.Thats real friends.
The so called friends can be so easy at fooling me.As i give them my best advice i get the bad feeling in my bones something not right.After what they been through from abuse and there kids get hurt in the process.So i give even more positive advice i can.But when things do not add up what they are doing after my advice.I have to step back and look at the picture to what is going on with the so called friend.As time goes by not hear anything from my friend but me being me just search about to find out whats going with the so called friend and her kids.Then i find out why i had bad feeling in my bones as the friend jump out of the frying pan straight back into the fire!
So after all my advice did not go anywhere with my so called friend.But as i know the friend will be back to lean on me and my ear again to start again.You see me being and my advice only its up to who iam talking to what decision they make for themselves.In the process me helping anyone out my feelings never get involved as they are closed off.After being in a bad relationship or bad marriage the last thing my friend wants is a relationship straight away.You see i know not to jump in the deep end but some so called friends did that and they drowned.They came back to me for my help but then found i was a bit different towards them.Not in a bad way just iam more cautious and still give them the best advice.Then its up to them to make the right decisions for themselves.
Also in my work when i get some iam expendable and i get used by any company etc to do work for them no matter what it is.When i get used by certain work an odd time they know i do the work 100% whether i come back or not but they know its done complete.
Thats a bit more about me and you can read back the last 8 years on my blog to see iam just me.
                               Adrian