Me being Expendable

Me being Expendable proved to me lately why iam expendable for real.Yes in my past been ups and downs in my life but at the same time being used for any purpose aswell by anyone anytime.I relised that a long time ago i was expendable and will never change in my life.When a real friend needs a ear and a shoulder to lean on me.They know iam there for them no matter what.That is real friends of mine.But i got so called real friends who do use me and jump out the frying pan straight back into the fire.They still expect me to be there for them.But me being me i know where i stand and so called friends i take a step back from them.My real friends do not do that to me and that is when they are back on there feet i feel so proud that i helped them to manage to get back on there feet.As i know they are there for me if i need them forever.Thats real friends.
The so called friends can be so easy at fooling me.As i give them my best advice i get the bad feeling in my bones something not right.After what they been through from abuse and there kids get hurt in the process.So i give even more positive advice i can.But when things do not add up what they are doing after my advice.I have to step back and look at the picture to what is going on with the so called friend.As time goes by not hear anything from my friend but me being me just search about to find out whats going with the so called friend and her kids.Then i find out why i had bad feeling in my bones as the friend jump out of the frying pan straight back into the fire!
So after all my advice did not go anywhere with my so called friend.But as i know the friend will be back to lean on me and my ear again to start again.You see me being and my advice only its up to who iam talking to what decision they make for themselves.In the process me helping anyone out my feelings never get involved as they are closed off.After being in a bad relationship or bad marriage the last thing my friend wants is a relationship straight away.You see i know not to jump in the deep end but some so called friends did that and they drowned.They came back to me for my help but then found i was a bit different towards them.Not in a bad way just iam more cautious and still give them the best advice.Then its up to them to make the right decisions for themselves.
Also in my work when i get some iam expendable and i get used by any company etc to do work for them no matter what it is.When i get used by certain work an odd time they know i do the work 100% whether i come back or not but they know its done complete.
Thats a bit more about me and you can read back the last 8 years on my blog to see iam just me.
                               Adrian
                         

yes end of another week

Well after my team Liverpool scoring 3 last night was just 1 short to go through to the next round.But Liverpool played there hearts out last night and just couldnt get the goal what they need to put them through to next round.Liverpool i supported you all my life and seen the good bad and ugly scenes at Anfield and still you get through it.
Other things this last week one thing i get my fitness back i think did manage 60 lengths yesterday.Infact did my full training schedule yesterday and it tired me out but felt really good.What i have to do to get rid of the fat of me.Also this last week things moved forward for me even though someone tried to knock me back down and they couldnt.As a few more positive vibes back in me will not let them and that feels good.So things actually looking better in my life now at long last.This weekend could be really  interesting but one thing for sure i will enjoy my hot radox salts bath tomorrow night for sure.Will be brilliant for me to chill out in :-)
 You all have a good weekend
                Adrian

My weekend is nearly over.

Well after a long week getting my fitness back after being ill.My weekend is closing off on my chill out day perfect.Even watch my team Liverpool beat Swansea.Yes we actually scored 5 times against them.After what happened to Liverpool last thursday thank god they scored today.So this next thursday we have to play and score again like we did today in Anfield.Anyways my weekend went ok with things going better for me.
This next week got a few ideas up my sleeve what have been there hibernating for to long.Time they come out to play.That will be a big boost for me providing they go to plan for me.So myself will just make them work perfect and then i can take a big step forward in my life for real.
Yes its sunday night and been a good weekend for me and my dad is getting even better aswell.So all in all things are going good for me at moment.
                         Adrian

End off my week without flu bug :-)

Been over a week since flu bug left my body thank god.But just being grounded with bug for 6 days knocked my body out of shape.This last week been just doing min exercises to build myself back up.Did swim 50 lengths yesterday i was knackered.Today did full separate 2 hours exercises felt really good.
My dad is getting better his shoulder is healing after his wee fall two weeks ago.With dad being 88 will take longer to heal but with dad being a bad patient like mum use to say when he was ill.He is a patient from hell but he is getting better which is good.So this last 2 weeks had to bite my tongue when with him each day and even with me having  flu bug i still carried on looking after dad each day.
So as end of this week for me and things going a wee bit better for me and dad.Looking better for us.

Weekend is here sun is out aswell

Yes its saturday morning and the sun is out but freezing aswell.This last week got rid of the dreaded flu bug out of me on thursday.It drained the strength out of me so need to take my time in getting fit again.Been out on walk this morning and hell it was hard going but felt really good.Bonus is now will improve myself better.
On thursday was my dads 88th birthday and he had a good day aswell as he is slowly getting better after his fall and twisting his shoulder bruising it bad.With some of family round to see him with of course a few bottles of whiskey birthday presents for him.Dad being dad after they all left and i was sitting with him and dad says fancy a wee drink and i said yes.So dad opened his present of whiskey and we had a wee dram together.Friday morning in with dad massaging his shoulder and he said he felt better best have a wee dram more often at night as he slepted better last night.His shoulder is getting better but will take time to heal.
Thinking  about it its been around 4 years since the last time i got that dreaded  flu bug in me.My defences in my body where down and thats how the dreaded bug got in me.Flu bugs from hell.
As with being grounded with flu bug the last week.As its gone from me now thank god.Time to have fun.