Truth From Cat Himself

Yes my 2013 rant but hold on its my true rant from my life time so far and will never change.I never belived in gods or religion ever in my my life and never will do.So much going on out there in the real world with religion and goverments.Its got all innocent human beings confused what is really going on in life time.Today the last day 2013 and i seen it on the news how many killings going on cause of religions and goverments but hold on the goverments answer to religions.
Excuse me long time in life you religions and goverments have killed the innocent people more.
Now i have  a lot out there saying cat has lost his mind writing or saying this but hold on they read again and they see iam right what i say that religions and goverments do not rule real humans with there fake attitudes to just make money but really they are just bullies and take the innocent humans for a ride for there own boost.
So as far as what i say for real and write on here its all true and not false.If you disagree what i just wrote then tell me and comment i was wrong.Either way if i was right or wrong then just tell me? Iam not asking much but i do stand my ground and if iam in the wrong then tell me!
                                   Adrian (cat)

Good Bad+Ugly 2013 comes to an end for me.

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Last Lazy Sunday Chill Out Day 2013

Yes its the last lazy sunday chill out day of 2013 for me.But so far this morning i got the good feeling in my bones and i cant just sit down and chill out for the day.With the buzz back in me and the sun is out aswell.As been over a week since i done mad hour exercises.With the way iam feeling now i will do the mad hour after i finish writing this.You see with me back at work and the working buzz back in me iam not one for sitting about on days of.Well the work place is shut down between xmas and new year.So its xtra time to chill out for me.But hold on i cannae do that every day while we are off hell i will go fat again.That is not logical for me.Yesterday afternoon i cleaned my hoose top to bottom and was looking for dust to clean.Omg
The buzz is back me and yes coming to near the end of 2013 bit late getting really back in me but it was worth while waiting for it.Patience is a virtue in me and belive it or not in 2013 its been pushed to the limits more than just one time in 2013.When i look back in this year things went good bad and ugly for me through the year but thats a part of my life.Actually this last month things actually got better in my life.Yes iam in shock.Just hope when 2014 starts the good feeling in my bones carries on as long as it can in 2014.
Yes watched my team Liverpool on boxing day and yes we got beat 2-1 by Man City but hold on the way the referee and linesmen made the decisions just went against us.The rules of offside and on side need to be learned by the refs+linesmen.Yes it was a penalty when Suarez was brought down.You see when the refs and linesmen can not make the correct decisions in a football game.The teams just made like a laughing stock by them.I watched games for a lot of years and when you see decisions like that it just puts a cat in amongst the pigeons! Makes a mocker of the game.As today we play against Chelsea at there ground.So will be glued to the computer watching the game when it kicks of at 16.00hrs.My team Liverpool will give it all they got and just might snick the winning goal to finish 2013 year in style.I will just have to wait and see how it goes after they kick off at 4pm.
Yes sun is still out and itch in my feet so of to burn some fat of me self for an hour of mad exercise.Of course tunes will be on in my black space between my ears aswell ;-)

Sunday lazy chill out day is here well meant to be ;-)

Yes its my sunday lazy chill out day and i just sat down.As since i got up this morning.I never stopped cleaning,ironing etc until now.Yes the last week i been working and getting home late at night no time for doing any odd work in my house.Thing is that this is the second week working at eeemmm and things going good but twice something happened to me but does not add up but iam the one who got rapped for it.Got me thinking after the second cock up which was not my fault again but i was getting blamed again.Me when i work for anyone doing any kind of work and if i do something wrong at there work i own up to it straight away.I do not pass the blame on to a fellow workmate.I take the wrap for my 100% mistake totally.I never ever or will ever pass the blame on to a fellow workmate cause of my mistake.I can not do that at all.If did pass the blame on to someone else. I would never sleep with the bad guilty feeling in for blaming someone for my mistake at work.Anyways me with my csi head working even better now.Will find out the real guilty one then that it will never know what will hit him.Stand on my toes for your own mistake to make you look good you it.It you made the worst mistake in your life.
Away from work yes yesterday lunch time Suarez  scored again for my team Liverpool.yes we beat Cardiff at Anfield.Yes another win but next game against Man City will be harder game.We won a few games in a row now.But Liverpool we have to keep playing that good in every game we play.We have no time to sit back at all.As we on the winning roll we just have to keep it going.So this thursday if iam not working i will be glued to the game against Man City.
Other things going this last week not a lot with being busy at work.So not a lot of time to be online but do check on things each day when i can.One wee bonus this last week on my Google plus Mandy Rice looked so wicked in her pics made my heart miss a few beats.Thankyou Mandy ;-)
Now i can chill out for the rest of my lazy sunday day :-)
                                     Adrian

Mid December 2013

For me things this last 10 days sort of changed for me.No not in that way ;-) Yes 10 days got an email about work for DPD driving.So talked to the agency what got a hold of me.Things looked ok so i took the work on and drive for DPD. Start of this last week van arrived and work here i go.Hold still got up and did my hours exercise before going to work.As just learning the ropes how DPD operate with there loading and unloading and delivering this last week.Didnt want to jump in the deep end with them.So me being me sat back and took everything how they work at there depot and deliver.With my experiance in unloading and loading in the past.This work is what i can do.Ok they scan each parcel etc and optimise each load to set you out on the correct route for deliveries with a cn70 intermec scanner.As i watched and learned i seen a lot how they operate but will take me a few weeks to really bed into how DPD works.Without jumping in the deep end and drowning myself.
Could have kicked myself one day as out on deliveries and i should have known what to do about one return and one delivery.But instead shot myself in the foot as my brain cell did not function right.Its ok i do get an odd time blip in my one and only brain cell.As far as i know the rest my first work week at DPD went ok.Still got a hell of a lot to learn the tricks and trade of DPD.Me being me will not take to long.Felt good out back on the road again.
Anyways apart from that my team Liverpool doing ok again but as i say they have to play like that in each game.Like how they played in the last game.Kick off against Spurs in an hours time and got all my house work done and dinner is on simmering at moment.So at half time in the game will have my dinner just hope things are going Liverpools way on the pitch in the first half.Then i will enjoy eating my garlic bolognese at half time.
So me working at moment will feel good this coming friday having a bit of money back in my pocket.As long as it is in my bank on friday might be able to treat myself to a wee voddy absolute way over xmas :-)
                                       Cat

Its Wednesday My Brain Cell Is Working ;-)

Well well well another it has joined the its club in the last 48 hours.Lucky iam back on my feet after being ill otherwise the it would have just killed me more.Before you ask its not JVC as iam working on those its before i can add them to the its club.The it what iam about is from another site and when the it talked to me things going ok.On the phone the it sounded genuine but when talking in conversation the it just went off.So tried a few times to contact the it but no answer.Got me curious to whats is going on and why the it used me like that.So me being me made a few calls to certain people and what they come back and told me.It just shows the it is a total it and the it gone into hiding.But no reason why the it stopped all communication with me.As the it has tried to disappear with out a trace.Anyways the it has joined the its club.Why cant you lot out there understand why iam expendable.In all categories iam expendable but why is so many it and its out there think that iam not.The last it just took the biscuit with me.The it could have just told me wanted to use me straight away then i know what i have to do and where i stand.But with the it but this it never said that at the start then done a runner.Mind you whats got me curious is why the it said a few times the it hated liers but hold on the it was a user lier aswell.I do not want it and its in my personal life.Thats true!
One thing getting back on my feet feeling strong again after the time being grounded with being ill.Went for a swim yesterday and did my both full two hours exercise aswell.Did a bit xtra aswell.My muscles could feel it last night.But had a great sleep and muscles did twinge a wee bit this morning  but they are doing ok.Yes my brain cell muscle is working aswell now thats a shock hehehehe
Watched my team Liverpool  on saturday and it was a great game against Everton ended up 3-3 both teams made a few mistakes but played very well back and forwards through the game.It was great to watch as both teams not played like that in the mersey side derby for a long time.Sort of proves that Liverpool are getting the fight back in them to progress further than just being ummmmm mode each day.With december coming up we have a lot of games to play and just need to carry on like how we are and we should win most of them.Liverpool need to finish the rest of 2013 in style to get back on the top again.
As for JVC  like what i said in my last post things are going ahead but patients is a virtue with me.With JVC  i will have to use my patients to the limit.So far what i found out is that the product what i bought from JVC is not the only product what they advertise to the public what is wrong when its delivered.I love the challenged against any company big or small when they are in the wrong with the public to make there money.Yes since internet come alive i had successfully ripped certain companies to bits after what they where doing to us real customers out there in the world.Amazing what they think they can get away with.Still they are at it nowadays and get away with it.The credit crunch kicked in 6 years ago and i lost a lot of work etc.But a lot of corrupt companies did go bang but its the ones that didnt go bang are still online or in there shops using and abusing customers to make there money for there back pockets.
So with this whats going on with JVC and me and a hell of lot of there customers who they used and abused is right up my street to sort them out.God i love the challenge and i will not lose this one at all.
Time to start to cook my dinner pork and veg and home made fries then for desert swissroll and custard to finish of with :-)

Midweek Update For A Change

Yes my brain cell is working midweek iam in shock hehehehehehe.Anyways apart from that been getting my life and strength back in me.After being grounded by the teeth.Been in my gums a long time and hell they left there mark and hit me with infection for having them removed.Not a way i recommend to lose weight either.
As iam getting my strength back feels good and doing all my minimum exercises and wee added xtra exercises.So iam getting back my wee muslces apart from one muscle he is on shelf at moment collecting dust ;-)
Apart from that still cant add any folders on here with my photos or music etc.Been on there a while now and still Google not let anyone add folders.All you can do is put a link on here to click to go to music or photos etc on another site.Before you say it yes we can add youtube videos on here.So now with my brain working  by the end of this week either Google comes up with a plan to keep me happy or i will just move to a new web design or blog for me.What will do what i want like have folders on it for pics,music,docs etc  what you can click when you are on my site.Not have to click to go to another site to view them etc.
One thing i was  on windows live spaces with my blog and being microsoft they made sure you where  happy with there windows live spaces.When i was on there you could add all folders etc When thinking about it not once did microsoft windows live spaces let me down.Apart from when they closed as they starting up other sites etc and lives spaces had to close.Bummer was that as it was wordpress what took most of the blogs on.Wordpress did not impress me as i couldnt do the bare min with my blog on there site of wordpress.So looked about found Google blogger what i could use with my domain.So set it up on Google but when tried to add pic folders i couldnt and same with music folders.I contacted Google about this problem they said look in to it but just kepted on saying about links to picassa etc to see pics and tunes.Not what i wanted as i want whoever looked at my blog and wanted to see my pics our here certain tunes to click on my folder on my blog not have to click a link to go to another site.
I kepted going around in circles and just backed off.Was not until the other week a friend of mine wanted to see my pics and said couldnt see any on my blog.I forgot all about why not you cant see my pics and tunes on my blog.So blew the dust of my memory banks in my head.Checked out to see if Google had changed to let us bloggers add folders to our own blogs.NO Google has not still the same you have to click a link to go to another site to view your pics etc.So after the last few years they never changed it.Not very good is that Google.So will check out other set ups for my blog what i can use and whoever reads it can use it with out being transfered to another site.
By the way if you buy a set of head phones from JVC they say deep bass sounds in ear canal headphones make sure they are! Not like me i bought a new set of in ear canal headphones last week from JVC and when i received them here at home.They are not in ear canal headphones just ear phones.Me being me checked there advert what they are selling and blow me to god they say they are in ear canal headphones but they are not !  Yes JVC  are selling deep bass in ear canal headphones but they are not as they only sit in the pinna part of ear. So sent them back and belive it or not got my £9.85 refunded as it was on Ebay i bought them.The other day got the only email back from JVC  but no name on it or even ext.The way the it wrote on it  was talking to me like a piece of crap on the ground.So JVC  are the dog house at moment just wrote another email to them and they have 48 hrs to get back to me.If they dont then i will contact Shoichiro Eguchi who runs JVC and ask him why he is selling something what is not the product they are supplying to customers.You see this is right up my street with my customer service investigation even though its my own money and time.I love it when i get a challenged.Will write more about the problem with JVC as soon as i know more myself.
Yes its midweek and iam feeling good with myself as iam just going with the flow yesssssssssssss
                 

Second week of November 2013

Been a while since i last wrote anything.Reason being my one and only brain cell been on strike ;-)
Yes ok my life been upside down the last few months all down to my teeth.Yes they are a pain when we first get teeth and there are a pain when they leave us.
Being grounded and losing so much strength all cause of the problems with my teeth.Even first time in my life after one tooth taken out i got an infection in my jaw and cheek.Talk about being totally grounded.
So the last week taking my time to build myself back up and iam getting there.Last weeks problem was phone line was dead from last tuesday morning.Bt had a problem with a network board in there main exchange.They hoped it will be fixed before 5 pm friday.Well with that problem no phone or go online.Give me more time to myself and to think aswell getting my strength back aswell.My phone line and broadband was all back on around thursday lunch time.So did not miss much at all.
With it all back on yes got my finger out and i need work asap as no money cant do anything.Ok being grounded the last few months did not help.As could not do anything and being single alone and sick at home.I was totally grounded.
There is one thing whats not changed and that is i still cant add a photo folder to my blog.When i first came to Google with my blog. I bought my domain name and set it all up on Google Blogger.Then when tried to add folders for pics etc i could not add.So contacted them and they said only can use picasa to put pics in there and who ever wants to see them.They have to click the link on my blog to go and see them.I asked about my tunes and all they said was only can use youtube  to publish on my blog.So could not have my tunes folders on my blog.
As for picasa the problems where they would add my pics as each time they said incorrect size etc.So here iam going around in circles and after so long i stepped back.Now last week on another site a friend of mine i give her my blog address.So she could read it anytime she would like to.My friends did ask me where my pictures where on my blog.I did not mention to her about the pic folder and the problems i had.So i had to explain to her why and what about my pics on my blog what are not there as they are in picasa.
Yesterday i tried again with picasa and the same problems in it.It not load correct and it duplicated a lot of the pics.After 2 times of removing picasa from my hard drive.The third time same problems i give up so removed it completely from my hard drive.
This is my blog at least before in  microsoft windows spaces live with my blog i had all the picture folders and music folders etc on my blog But microsoft closed windows spaces live down as they said not making enough money etc from it.Thats when wordpress took who ever had a blog etc on it on.But wordpress is so limited what you can do on there site it was totally crap.Thats when i bought my domain and came to Google Blogger.Thats when i found about the photos folder and music folder problems.I was told by them at the start they would get it sorted out to use the folders etc on your blogs but so far they havent.
So at moment iam looking about the other sites what i can use my blog on all of my blog will be on one site with no clicking links to go to another site to see my pics and tunes etc like on here.

Back on my feet :-)

This last week taking my time to get back on my feet after being grounded with infection after tooth was removed.Wednesday got an itch in my muslces to do some exercise.Thursday morning did a little exercise using my toys here.Felt good and when getting ready to go to Carlisle thought might aswell have a wee swim.Thought do my min swim after 2 weeks not any swim or any excercises.Went well infact my muscles did twinge a bit and out of breath aswell after 10 lengths.As when i swim i dont do it for speed just use my strength to keep going.I ended up doing 50 lengths.Hell i was tired out but after no swim for 2 weeks i did ok.Got home used my toys doing each exercise on the min.Didnt do my power walk.I slepted well on thursday night.With my gum taking time to heal up.I just have to be careful when i do my exercises.
Saturday the first time in 2 weeks i did both 2 full hours of my exercises.Yes did my power walk and all the min on the rest of my exercises.Now i could feel it in my muscles but i didnt pull any of them.
After 2 weeks being ill i lost a lot of my strength and i can feel it.Last night done a disco at Great Corby Bridge Inn.It was good night. Its been 3 years since the landlady took it on.With being anniversary night was good with BBQ and Disco.All the regulars where in and there friends made the night go very well.Hot babes dancing aswell.Infact they knocked me for 10 with there sexy moves as they danced with the tunes being played :-)
One thing with being ill give me time to think to myself even more.I know at this age of my life i have to go out my way to get what i want.Me being here alone i have nothing at all.I came back here to get my life back together done that but still i have nothing in my life to be proud of.So made my own decision to get my finger out my ass and get what i want for real to make my life better for myself.I sat back and never relised that i had nothing at all until me being ill the last two weeks.Made me think what is going on in my life.Nothing was the answer to myself.Now what iam going to do is what i want for real and no messing about or put on hold.I will get what i want with no failures.A lot people out there will not like it i have changed.they just have to lump it.As i dont live my life for them.This is my life and i will do what i can to enjoy it the best i can for the rest of my life.

Missed Fired Start For The 48th Year Of My Life

Its great teeth they hurt you when they grow and when you have them taken out at the end of the tooth life.They give you even more pain ! Life of a tooth !
Yes it all started to me back in september just as my year 48 approached me.That tooth was removed.The other tooth what needed removed.Had to wait for gum to heal of the one just taken out.So on the 9th October 2013 booked in to have it removed.It was stubborn to get the bottom back tooth in my jaw out but after huff and puff my dentist.She got it out.(thats the tooth i mean)Well be in there 48 years.It was out and just give time to heal and get my feeling back in my face.I didnt expect what to happen next it floored me.Thursday morning still swollen in my face and by friday morning it was like the size of a cricket ball.So on the phone to dentist in to see her.I got an infection on jaw and cheek.She put me on antibiotics.Started to take them friday afternoon.
Not until i tried to sleep on friday night that couldnt sleep.Then i remembered after car accident on antibiotics i never slepted. Antibiotics do that to me i cant sleep when taking them.Also cant look at computer screens etc to long as my eyes hurting to much.Friday no sleep and same with saturday and face still swollen like it been hit by cricket ball.Sunday did manage a couple hours sleep.With no sleep and not eating i was not looking to good at all.Tuesday the sixth day i had to go to the emergency dentist as mine on holiday.Debbie took a look and i had infection in the socket where the tooth was removed aswell my cheek being swollen with infection.
As dentist Debbie cleaned the infection out of socket.My eyes where streaming with the real pain as she cleaned it out.No i didnt screamed but it what strength i had left in my body to ignore against the pain.
Since tuesday after tooth socket cleaned and antibiotics finished aswell and Debbie prescribed me Amoxicillin for 7 days.As i write this my swollen cheek  has gone right down.My tongue is getting back to the right colour and iam not feeling cold anymore.Did have a good nights sleep the last 2 nights.It will take a while for gum heal up perfect as long as no more infection in it.
Now just have to build my strength back up and get my life back on track.
So my start to year 48 in my life missed fired in style!
                                     

October 4th 2013 is here.

Its the fourth of october 2013 and never guess what.Iam on the way back to the dentist in an hour to get i hope another tooth out.Ok had a few wee problems with my teeth this last few weeks.They are getting sorted out.After sleepness nights and not been able to eat as much.My weight and fat fell off me.Back to like being skin and bone after car accident.Just taking my time in building myself back up.As if i binge eat i will get fat and be in a bad way.I know i havent got all my strength back as my body is sleeping longer repairing itself.So another visit to dentist today and she will cure that tooth and i might get a good nights sleep tonight.With out any tooth ache pain waking me up.
So my new year 48 in my life has sort of missed fired so far with the dreaded toothache.Just so much i want do but being grounded by the tooth ache.Me is just being patient as strong itch in my feet is back so things are going to get better in my life.My team Liverpool are going forward aswell.Watched them since the start of this season and they are playing as a team of hunger.Thats what they not had for a long time at Anfield.
Yes its friday and its raining aswell and the weekend is nearly here.
                     So have fun if you can :-)

Last day of 47 years in my life !

Yes its my last day of 47 years of life i had so far.This last year for me been not so bad in my life.Infact a wee bit better than i expected.After so long getting my life back together and getting out of that deep rut i was in.Things actually better belive it or not.This last year of my life did have a few things that did knock me down.They hit me hard but i kepted moving forward.If i didnt they would have just held me down rest of my life if i let them.You see i know that in myself that iam better in my life with myself taking day by day and going forward in my life.
Two weeks ago something did hit me and hell it did.The dreaded tooth ache it floored me! Getting shooting pain across my gum every 20-30 minutes.My patients was use to the max each time the pain shot me.Now with getting no sleep and not eating for 3 days does not help me at all.When i got to dentist on the 3rd day.The dentist took the bad tooth out.After she was using all her strength to get it out of my gum.15 mins later it was out.My top plate had to go away to get new tooth added to it.Get it back 5 days later.With bad tooth out it will take time for my gum to heal.When i got my top plate back my gum was already in the process healing.Putting plate in now the healing process can really take place.Will take another week for to heal completely i hope.With me being in real pain and no sleep i did lose weight and my strength.Last thursday when i looked at myself in mirror.The last time i looked like that with being so thin was after car accident.I knew myself i had to eat and just take time to build myself back up.Thats with no binge eating or i will just go to being fat.So with eating properly  the last few days and doing some gentle exercises.Gradually building myself back up.
Yes its my last day after 47 years and tonight i will close it of with a hot radox salts bath.My treat to myself.
                                 Adrian

Pain In The Last 6 Days In Me !

Last weekend my lazy sunday day went out the window.As i had the buzz in me to work out and sweat more.Sunday night i had that negative feeling in my bones something not right.Monday no energy in me at all to do any of my exercises or do anything at all.Around 5pm i had a shooting pain across my top teeth along my gum.Never thought much of it as it went away as quick as it hit me.In bed monday night and just about to fall asleep then the shooting pain hit me again across my gum.It went on for about 5mins and hell it was real pain.All night every now and then i got that shooting pain and couldnt sleep.Tuesday took some ibuprofen it calm things down in my teeth.But not for long as the pain hit back.It was not continuous pain it was just around every 20 mins when it shot me in my gum.
As tuesday went on getting no better phoned dentist but couldnt see me until wednesday afternoon.Tuesday night tried to get some sleep but couldnt as each time falling asleep the pain shot me and keep me awake.With no sleep and not eating i was losing all my strength.Nearly did get pliers out of tool box to pull the bad tooth out.Yes when i could sleep got myself up and went to bathroom.I did what i normally do went i get up go and clean my teeth.As i brushed my teeth and then wash my mouth out with clean cold water.I forget about the bad tooth.The cold water in mouth hit the bad tooth and pain it was so severe my tears run out of my eyes.The dreaded pain floored me.
Wednesday  had go to working links first them dentist in afternoon.My brain cell drained and no strength in me even left brolly at home and it rained  when i got to Dumfries yes i got soaked.Was not bothered as now and then the pain hit me in my gum.Got back to Annan to the dentist in the afternoon.My dentist she looked at the bad tooth and said it had to come out yessssss.After injections in my gum it then took my dentist around 10 mins to get the bad tooth out.It was being stubborn as it didnt want to leave my gum after being in it for nearly 48 years in my life.It came out after putting up a fight.Felt good it was gone.
With it being out my false plate what needed to go away to get a new tooth put on it.I get it back on monday and rest of my teeth will be checked out.So me being naked with out my teeth in for 5 days and of course watch what i eat and let the gum heal back up.Wednesday night went to bed and got a good sleep.Thursday morning knew i need to build up my strength again.So not do any exercises for a few days.Infact with not eating right or sleep right and pain for 3 days.Not a way to lose weight.Yes iam 6ft 2in and i try and keep my weight right and do some gentle exercises to keep myself right.But with that pain hitting me etc i knew i lost weight and started to look a bit thinner.So i have to be careful in what i do each day as i build my strength back up.As with not all my teeth in until monday i have to only smaller pieces of meat etc.
Infact brought all back the memories after what i looked like after car accident.For being just skin and bone.I knew on thursday do not want to be like that again.So will just take my time and build my strength each day and not.This morning my gum is starting to feel better as the bone is about healed where the bad tooth was removed from.
So the bad tooth started on me with warnings on last sunday night and then on monday shot me with the pain.Three days no eat or sleep and getting shot with pain every now and then.Just drained me totally.
Weekend is here now and the sun is out aswell to play this morning so far.No pain in my gum as recovery going very well.Yes iam eating aswell.
                       No Pain No Gain !

Last day of August 2013

Yes its the 31st august 2013.Just looking back in my life whats been going on in august.Things actually been a wee bit better for me.Infact kinda feel prouder of myself as iam actually moving forward in my life.Things moving slow going forward in my life but that is better than going backwards like my life was doing.I just got to remember it will take time for me stepping forward in my life.I cant just make things happen to quick or they will kick me in the teeth.With being so long being down in a deep rut in my past.I know it will take time to get back to being on top in my life.To tell you i feel even more confident in myself now and even write this the positive vibes are flowing out of me.These feelings in me i never thought i would ever get back in me again in my life.Patients is a virtue when you want something.
Also this last after dipping my toes at the baths.(yes i got wet all over ;-) When back home i do my wee bit of exercises just to get all the sweat out of me after dipping toes.It was hot here with sun out and went on my power walk.Just over half way round and my sweat just run out of me like i was in the shower.A few months ago that happened to me aswell.Yes all my strength just drained out of me in sweat again.I just  made it back home but back home soaking in sweat.Time to take time out as no strength in my body.No exercises on wednesday either as xtra day of rest to give my body a rest and rebuild.Thursday took it easy and went for swim and did my exercises aswell.Was being being very careful this time.Yesterday and this morning been out on my power walk and used my toys no problem.So after being drained of my strength iam ok now.One thing is that excess fat what i had got drained out with all that sweat the other day.
Tuesday night watched my team Liverpool in the cup game and with looking good with being 2-0 but when they scored 2 goals and it went to xtra time.Thought here we go again but we scored another 2 in the xtra time.So another win for my Liverpool this season so far.Tomorrow we play against Man U at Anfield and i will be glued to screen watching it live.Yes we play Man U at there ground in the next round of the cup aswell.This will make september more interesting with my team Liverpool kicking of september against them at Anfield tomorrow then in the last week play them again at there ground.Tomorrow kick off at 1.30pm so my lazy chill out sunday will be put on hold while game is on at Anfield.
The other thing from August is that still can not watch BT sport on my broadband connection what i pay them for.Still the famous error codes what BT put up but no fixes!As for what i read on there forums over 160,000 people who have complained to BT since the 1st August about that problem and still they not fixed it yet.Not very good customer service is it BT.Hell us customers of yours BT we need patients of steel until you fix the Broadband BT Sport problem out so we can watch it on our BT broadband connection what you promised us customers.Since the 1st August 2013.
Anyways apart from that its the end of August 2013 and i will close it of with my hot radox salts bath tonight
Hope you all had a good August month.September is here tomorrow make a good one :-)
         

Nearly middle of august already

Time goes a wee bit quicker keeping yourself busy.As time went by since i last wrote and with me having positive vibes flowing out of me.Things have been going good.Well sort of better than things where going and will push the boat out more to make even better.Since that day a few years ago i stopped living the past in my future.As before that day i was knocked down and held down as i let them do that to me.When that day it really sunk in to me then i knew i hard i been hit but never moved forward.That day made me close my past off and now no matter how hard i get hit nowadays i keep moving forward in my life.
After so long being held down my life went no where at all.So many times tried to go forward but someone just knocked me down more and more.The last few weeks been looking what i done since that day i stepped forward in my life.Things been hard to do as i got a lot to do.New things come along for me and iam enjoying it.You might think whats he going on about.You see being knocked down for a lot of time in your life.To rebuild your life is very hard to do.As so easy to let them knock you back down.For example went for a interview for work the other week.I have all the qualifications they required.Things looking good but they knocked me back as me not worked for a while.Instead of me biting and going mad.I said ok and walked away with my head up.If that was when i was knocked down that would have been another nail in my coffin lid on me.You see i know what i have been through in my life.As iam here now and know that my past is past and not past in the future.As i write this the buzz is in me and feels good.
At moment i have two things what are causing problems to me but iam not biting.The first thing been going on since jan 2013 and again they sent letters out again from there office in Glasgow but will not admit who is sending the letters out to me.Me and staff at there Annan office sent the details to them 4 times now and still they say about over payment but there is no over payment.Yet the office in Glasgow they say there is but hold on they got no evidence to say there is a over payment made to me.So this wednesday will go to the Annan office again and send all the documents to that office proving no over payment as all forms where filled in correctly about my pension.Dont we love goverment offices.
The other problem i have is BT Sport.When they launched BT Sport you can have it free if you have broadband with BT.Yes i do have broadband,phone and line rental with BT.I will have the BT Sport through my broadband with them.They lauched 1st  August 2013 i applied for it got email to confirm the order and just wait until get email to say its gone live.I got that emailed them i went to my BT account and signed into BT Sport.Things going well  BUT clicked watch on BT sport 1 BUT the famous errors started to come up.Went through everything and set up right but could not watch any live BT sport program.As errors come up each time.Time got on phone to BT sport and find out whats going on.Then as so many customers with same problem they where busy.The first call was on hold 48 mins then give up,Second call over an hour on hold,Third call talked to someone after 5 mins then he passed me to another department and on hold 50 mins.Looked at there problem page and to see what they say about error codes.They sort of blamed silverlight from microsoft.So me being me got a hold of a tech from microsoft who i know.He said cat your xp system is working perfect.That was after vigorous check on my xp.Not one of my programs at fault at all. BT still saying it was silverlight.So when they said uninstall silverlight and go to earlier version of it and them BT sport will work.Wrong  tried it but still error codes coming up no matter which silverlight you use to get BT sport through your broadband it will not broadcast BT Sport through your broadband connection.Yesterday i called them again and belive it or not was answered 10 mins being on hold.The person who i talked to listened to me and i listened to him.He could only do so much infact what he was saying was what on the error code fixes etc on there BT Sport Problem page.He said it will get passed to tech in there tech department on monday which is today.They would call me and see if they can fix problem with BT Sport.As so far no call from them just will have to wait.Hope it gets sorted out by saturday as there first live football game on saturday is my team Liverpool against Stoke. Yes its live on BT sport free through your broadband connection.But hold on i cannae get BT Sport live through my broadband apart from error
codes.Hope you get it sorted out BT sport as cant even watch live on any other web site as you blocked
Firstrowfree live sports for uk.If you havent got it sorted out i just checked and it will be live on Radio 5 live
When i think about it when i worked on customer service problems when broadband started to take over dial up.There was certain problems the same with certain internet providers as they only got the error codes when you tried to watch live programs online.Me think been down this road before for real But was getting paid then to sort problem out.At moment the problem is happening to me and thousands others aswell.
The sun just come out to play so of on a power walk to give my brain cell a rest :-)

                           

End of a really good weekend :-)

This last 7 days yes the sun has been out playing each day.Yes summer is here definitively this time.Even through the week it did catch me out.Was in Carlisle shopping and a wee swim aswell.When got home shopping away and started my hour exercise.With being hot outside i knew wouldnt take long to get the sweat out on me.On my power walk just over half way round on it.Yes sweat running out of me like it does but then my body just totally drained all my strength.Yes with the heat being 28 degrees and me on mega sweat power walking.It hit me and for the first ever it ever hit me like that.I did manage to get home just but was totally drained.
Ok i do my exercises 6 days per and for the first ever time it drained all my strength out of me while doing my exercise.What i have to go through to shift the fat of me.Got my strength thank god.Just need to be a wee bit careful when it is hot like that doing my power walk.
Anyways apart from that work side of things still invisible as still not found any yet.Friday and saturday nights give Graham a help with his disco.Friday we where at Palnackie in the Glenisle inn for a 18th birthday party.The night went very well as plenty of guests etc where there and made the night better.Infact brought back memories when i use to have my own disco playing in pubs and clubs.Saturday night we where at Great Crorby  in the Corby Bridge Inn.There with disco and karaoke.Not as many there but with karaoke did help as once they started to sing they couldnt stop.As the night went on it was good and great banters and singing going on.This weekend being a wee bit different for me but a bonus it got me out the house for two nights.Entertaining people with tunes etc.Made my weekend nearly perfect for me.
Just hope tonight it not humid so can have a decent sleep.As the last 2 weeks its been humid each night and sleep not to good when its like that.Sunday night iam chilled out and ready for this next week for whatever comes at me.Iam fully chilled out and feeling good with positive vibes flowing out of me.
                        Adrian

Chill out day is here in the sun :-)

Yes we had the hottest day yesterday for year so far.Yes it hit over 28`c it was bliss.But was humid through night last night.This morning its already 24`c now and its only 10.32am.So its going to get even hotter as the sun kicks the clouds out of the way.Yes sun tan cream is on as dinnae want to burn myself as i top my tan up.Yesterday doing my power walk just after lunch time felt like i just got out of shower when i got back home.Last night helped Graham do a disco at a birthday party at New Abbey.It was good night but after 10pm the party really kicked in and then it was like a sauna until we got finished.It was great to entertain all the guests there at the birthday party and they could sing on the karaoke aswell.It all went with the flow.Thats what made the night even better.After we got finished back home i was knackered but felt good.
This morning waking up yes its my chill out day but just used my toys for 25 mins.Again felt like just out of shower with sweat running off me.Yes its my lazy chill out day.But after good night last night  i got the buzz back in me.Just to sweat more with using my toys.The big question is will i do my power walk just after lunch time.Mind you the way i feel i want to go on it now.The buzz feeling is kicking back in me style at long last.
My team Liverpool played there first friendly game and won 4-0.With some new signings playing for the first time for the reds aswell.Just hope they all knit together as a full team with the rest of squad.As they have that chance with the next 6 friendlies to prove they will before the new season kicks of this year.
Yes its my lazy chill out sunday and after a good week. Great feeling in me to start the new week of with positive vibes flowing out of me yessssssssssssssssss.
                      Adrian

Monday the sun is out its getting hotter here :-)

Yes its the start of a another week but wait a minute the last two days the sun has been out and its getting hotter.Yesterday it was hot but the clouds where stopping getting threw.Today not a cloud in the sky and with the sun in full power today.It was over 25'c around 11.45am and just after 1pm it nearly hit 26'c Its been hovering around that temperature since lunch time.Yes summer is here in Scotland at long last.
The last week  started of really good and kepted going good all week for me.Yes my brain cell still working.
Being between the cities and town aswell each day.I was going with the flow and things seemed to knit together.yes things went a lot better than i thought.Even in the dentist last monday came out with a smile on my face.Yes i did omg Adrian smile on his face after being in dentist.Wait until i see them again this week will there be a smile on my face or not.Will answer the question in my next blog.
So with being back on the mic again playing tunes not online.Yes for real started to get back into playing tunes for people for real.Yes on Grahams disco last saturday wedding we did at night.This saturday in club at Dumfries.You see since i was 15 played tunes to all occasions as my hobby of mine.Been online playing tunes but for real i prefer better.Thats why iam getting back into DJ for real.I get a buzz and feel proud of myself when i can entertain everyone with the right music at the right time in any occasion i DJ at.
As my work side its in the so so moment when looking for funding etc .This is what happens when you try to start up your own business when you need funding.Been going through it all again to make sure i got it right.Infact it was all right and i added more to my applications for funding etc.
After being ill a few weeks ago got all my strength back last week.So still on a mission with myself to get the last of the fat of me.Today was up at 5.15am and warmed up and doing my power walk the sweat was rolling of me after 10 mins of power walk.At lunch time today thinking with being so hot outside should i do power walk or not.Yes i did power walk in the heat and it felt so good but looked like i just got out of a shower when i got back home.The sweat was flowing out of me.The power walk i do is about 2 miles and takes me 30 mins to walk it with 1.5 kilo angle weights on each leg.Yes i do 1 hour training twice a day to keep me right.
I have done my exercises  since nearly 4 years ago as i was out of shape and heart burn etc.So i had to get rid of the fat etc.It frightenned me the shape i was in.Me not working i do my exercises 6 days a week and 2 days also i swim.Sunday is my lazy chill out day.Each exercises i do i have myself a min on each one.So i do the min and anymore is a bonus to me. Here is what i do in my hour exercise.Its not lot but its what i can do and iam happy with.Here is what i do in an hour exercise.
20 arm swings,50 touch toes,50 press ups,130 sit ups,30 leg pulls 30kilo weights,50 arms pulls 30 kilo weights,Ankle weights on,Power walk 30 mins,20 arm swings,50 touch toes,70 dumbbell with either arm 9 kilo dumbbells,30 leg pulls,50 arm pulls,1 mile on bike.10 squats,50 press ups, Shower  then 110 ab rolls.
Thats my exercises i do in an hour morning and afternoon and on tuesday and thursday i swim aswell.as long as i do 20 lengths iam happy.At moment iam doing 60 or 70 lengths.
I only do it after being in bad way and to tell i enjoy doing it now as i feel better in myself.
Time to go back out in the sunshine and relax for the rest of the day.
                                 Adrian

Last Sunday Chill Out Day In June 2013

The last week things sort of going good for me.One thing was on tuesday 25th my daughter Diane was 19.Yes its been nineteen years since my daughter born in to my hands.Nineteen years gone so quick since Diane was born.Looking back at whats gone in my life in those 19 years.So much happening with my life being changed around especially 15 years ago when it got changed without me knowing.No use going about that you can read about in the past blogs what i have wrote on here.
This last week with Diane a year older infact iam getting older myself aswell.When being ill 3 weeks ago its taken to this last few days to get all my strength back in me.By its been hard work getting my strength back.My body can feel it but feels good doing the work outs as i can make my body work harder now.
Now even my one and only brain cell is working (still cant find it) With wanting funding etc to get started into my work.Me brain cell be on turbo boost this last week.Been getting into that deep dark world of business funding etc.Its not everyones cup of tea but its a great challenge for me.To prove to myself i can do it no matter what anyone else says at all.Yes had a few knocks down this last week but thats just part of the parcel.No i did not bite or blow my top off.One call the other day talking about funding typical the person listened to me but as soon i was picking up negative vibes from that person.When they clicked in me knew that phone call was going  no where.Yes i was right so about 20 mins on phone got me no where at all apart from me blowing even more dust off my memory banks in my brain.To know to expect time to get wasted by the its.As for me i do multi task in in all types of work.Yes i can do all my own accounts etc to clean sewage from drains to driving.Reason being since i left school i work in so many different types of work.With multi tasking in work been great.As i have learned a lot more that i thought i would about different work.One thing though when my life got changed.People wouldnt accept the way i was after change.It took coming back home to get restart to build my life for the second time.Even now i get the same reaction of certain its out there that they dont accept me as to who iam now.
You see i have accepted iam a wee bit different than i was yes iam getting older thats reason why ;-)
But it and its out there when they just look at my paperwork then they accuse me but hold on its the its who has not got the right paper work as they didnt have the right dates on them.You see one department does not talk to another department on the same office floor.They just make there own decisions up no matter what happens to the innocent ones in the real world.
Customer service is some of my work what i do when required.Before credit crunch kicked in 5 years ago.A lot of customer service where corrupt.I did help to get a bit of it sorted out.But when the big credit  crunch kicked in a lot of companies closed.I lost work.But nowadays the customer service on certain companies call centres etc are still corrupt and no one is sorting them out.Then they use and abuse you and they do not give a  xxxx what they do to you.The ones who are at me at moment until friday afternoon when i got the ammunition from them why and the resaon why they where chasing after me.Hell its so simple in front of there eyes and they just didnt see it.They even got debt chasing company after me aswell.But with the complete 100% evidence i have against them now.Think when i see them tomorrow they will will want to hide in the cupboard after being black and fronted.
Yes its my last lazy sunday chill out day of June 2013 so now to get chilled out tunes on.Cup of tea and of course double choc chip cookie :-)
                              Adrian

Yes its midweek

The sun is out to play again yeeeahhhhhhhh. God it feels good with the sun out and no rain again. Anyways after the dreaded bug hit me 2 weeks ago.The last 3 years since i started to get rid of the fat a bit of fat been hanging around my waist and never could shift it.Until the dreaded bug hit me 2 weeks ago.With being grounded in bed and couldnt eat for 3 days.The fat what was clued to my waist it disappeared with being ill and not eating for 3 days.Yes its gone at last but i not a way to lose fat with not eating for 3 days!
So start of this week been doing my minimum exercises as will take time to get all my strength back up.So far going good as been doing a wee bit more on my exercises.Even swim yesterday done my 20 lengths and few  more ended up doing 60 lengths.Thats a bonus for me.This morning out doing my power walk at 5.40am and felt good.Only thing was last night it was humid all night and thats crap when its like that.
So time my brain cell gets working hard again like it was before dreaded bug hit.Give myself until end of october this year to get the work what i want up and running.As for funding what i need its a mission to get it but at least iam trying.With half way through june so far my brain cell need to go in turbo drive to make things happen for me how i want it to happen for real for me.
Wednesday is here the sun is out again and time to rock and roll my brain to get things done today.
                                        Adrian

Starting to recover at last from Bug !

Begining of last week everything going ok for me and felt so good.Tuesday was going great with sun out aswell until around 9pm the dreaded bug hit me.I just came back from dads and sat down around 9pm thought just browse on computer and watch a bit of tv aswell But just after 9pm looking at computer screen what ever bug was in me it hit me like a ton of bricks.It felt like i just had a welding flash the way my head went and my eyes screamed.I could not look at screen or tv got it hit me bad.So of to bed and with in 20 mins in bed the sweat was running out of me.The bed was soaked in sweat.Not even an hour gone by since bug hit and i was in a bad way.
All night could not sleep and just drunk hot cups of tea when i could.Wednesday no better at all. Even wednesday morning hot outside i was in a hot radox salts bath hoping to sweat bug out of me.But to no avail it never shifted at all.I could eat anything as my throat was sore and head feeling like a press on it.My eyes where all blood shot and in pain.As wednesday went by and changed and washed all my clothes and bedding.As learned from my mother when a bug gets in the house you got keep it all clean to help get rid of bug.Wednesday only could eat my porridge as my throat being to sore to eat anything hard at all.But was struggling to eat a bowl of porridge each time when i tried to.Thursday did manage some sleep but was sweating bad in bed and still not got rid of bug.My eyes no better either.Another hot bath and washed all the bedding again and still no sign of bug leaving me.Got some extra strength  ibuprofen and started to take them.Hoping it would shift bug.After not eating much since tuesday dinner time.I knew the weight was dropping of me to quick.The tablets kicked in but the bug was so strong in me.It would take some shifting.Thursday night did sweat a lot in bed as i slept for a bit.Friday morning bed wet with me sweating so much.Still no sign of the bug shifting from me.As friday went by feeling a wee bit better but still couldnt eat.The ibuprofen shifted the weight of my head  but my throat was even worse.
Saturday morning managed a bit more sleep last night.Didnt sweat as much in bed and my eyes where better.Seems like ibuprofen was at last was working.My throat was a bit better aswell.As saturday went on did mange to eat breakfast and lunch.So thought i need to cook dinner and hell yes i managed to eat it.
Saturday night another hot radox salts bath then hit bed and managed a good sleep.Sunday morning at last iam starting to recover from the bug what hit me.
As sunday went by i could eat and only my throat not fully recovered.So after the dreaded bug what hit me last tuesday.Is leaving my body thank god.As with losing weight being ill i have to start to build my body back up.So have to go back to my original set of exercises what i started of on a few years ago.As i have to watch my muscles as i could harm them to much.So will just try and do a bit until i get all my strength back.
So since last Tuesday the sun being out and being very hot here.There is me in bed as the dreaded bug hit me.Typical the sun out and me grounded in bed with bug.
Now with bug out of me hope this next week goes better for me.
                         Adrian

15 Years on since my life line was changed.

Yesterday just around 6.18pm  01.06.98.That moment in time changed my life totally.It was not planned it just happened.Last night sitting here thinking about what had happened to me then and after it aswell.For where iam now in my life now since it was changed back then.I will still say that car accident was bad but what the it did to me after the accident  killed me more.Infact thinking about it if i didnt come back home the it would have killed me permanently.
Yes to restart my life from day one being back home.My mum and dad where the only ones who could help do that.They did being the best parents you can ever ask for.They knew i was not right but stood by me and helped me to be myself again.Even now looking back the last 15 years been up and down like a yoyo in my life.With all what was going on getting my life back up and running.The car accident case and my daughter court case.It was my parents who where my back bone that got me through those really hard times.
The main problem with me was that i couldnt understand why i couldnt do what i knew i could do in the past before accident.I would not accept that at all.The it then really did kill me more than accident.As the it knew the only way she could hurt me was through our daughter.As she knew i would do anything for my daughter.
My mum and dad listened to it all what was going on and they give me the best advice they could to help me.
As time went on the certain its around here just jumped on the band wagon when they knew i couldnt defend myself.The it bullies they are loved it.So more its joined the club.
To get my strength back and to ignore the its taken some time in doing.With me still knocking myself down as still would not accept that i had changed in my life.
With help of mum and dad and Jerry as time went by  i started to get my life back up and running and feeling positive vibes coming back into me.
They was a certain few its who i let into my feelings.Me not thinking i was not ready for serious relationship yet.The its just bullied me more and thought i was so easy to be used.But what they didnt relise they wreck my feelings but made me even stronger and the barriers of steel around my heart now.So no it can get in to my heart and do it to me again.
The it and its out there are still there and still like an it the other day tried it on me but with me being stronger now with myself i did not bat an eye lid when the it started.Infact the it was sort of gob smacked as she couldnt  bully me.You see likes of that gives me more positive vibes flow out of me.
The it what killed me more than car accident 15 years ago.Is at her it stupid games again with our daughter.With Diane being 19 this month she knows what the it is like and Diane being a young adult will make her own mind up about the it.All i can do is sit back and Diane knows her dad is there for her.
Last night my treat to myself a hot radox salts bath and real good thinking to myself.That i will try and make my own life go better each day and what i want i will make it happen and just not dream.
Yes been 15 years since my life changed and i still keep going.Taken day by day and will do the best i can to enjoy my life more in the future.
My past is the past as  my past is not the future!
                            Adrian

Yes its 20th May 2013

Just looked at what i last wrote on here and omg it was nearly a month ago.Time flies quick when you are busy and happy.So this last 4 weeks in my life been a wee bit different.Things been happening for the good for me and  not a lot gone wrong at all.My dad was away for a week aswell and when he came back last week enjoyed it but was glad to be back at home.Also as for me while dad was away give me more time to really think hard what i want to make happen in my life now.That means i have stepped forward even more now.You see been so much going on in my own life etc i never had the chance to move on.
Now i have that golden chance to move on and i have done.By hell it feels good that i have.
With the buzz back in me i cant sit about and wait for things to happen.I will make them happen for real straight away.You see i got things right and wrong in the past and the last year even more wrong than right.But as my past is the past and not the future in my life.Moving forward now and will not let my past or anything else knock me backwards.
With the positive vibe feelings back in my bones feels great and last friday night was DJ for a engagement party in Dumfries.We played the right tunes and it was a good night for us.What the main thing for me was that i not lost the touch with how to DJ for real in front of over 100 people in the club.So back into what i do for a hobby in my life and playing tunes to make people happy no matter the occasion what i DJ in.
With doing that my positive vibes where stronger flowing out of me and it feels great.Been a long time since i had that feeling flowing out of me.So with me stepping forward in my life things are getting better each day for me.Today with this being only monday and its not rained today and iam smiling and feeling good with myself.So at long last i can start to enjoy my life better and be happy aswell in myself.
                          Adrian

it + its

From my past there is three its have appeared again with there ugly heads.The only reason those its are still alive and kicking is cause two of the most important humans to me are involved and alive and kicking.They where doing ok until a bit ago the its started again with  promises etc.Things are getting ugly with one of the its already and the other two  its will make it more ugly starting end of this week.You see i know what the its done to me and my family before.They went quiet for long enough but they started again.Knowing i will not take the three its out permanently .As they know i cant cause of the two most important humans to me are involved.Before in the past they caused so much pain to the most important humans to me.Now they are at it again and i have sit back again but i can only take so much.You see other its what stepped on my toes in the past did get taken care off.Yes a few its from my past have not been taken care of yet.As they not walked into me yet but soon will do.When that day happens  is the day when the colour will drain out there face so quick they will wish they where dead
Me being Expendable does help in a big way in this situation with the three its.But what goes around comes around and the three its there day it will come around.
                        Cat

Third of the way through April

Sitting here and my brain is working again.Yes its true like a bolt of lightening my brain is working to good again.Yes it will sink in me that it does work an odd time in my life sometimes ;-)
Since i last post i wrote this and that has been going on with me and my life.Infact for the better than the worse.Now that is amazing :-)
Been looking at what i want to happen for real and made certain things happen for real what i need to happen.A few other things that i want to happen for real  they will just a wee bit longer they will happen for real.The look on certain faces will be shocked as they will see me for real and not just on internet.
Work side of me its getting quieter here in uk and i struggle harder to make things better for myself.But bolt out of the blue yesterday just might start to make things easier in my life.Its got me curious as at moment as not been ask to do that work before.But as me being expendable its right up my street.
My dad this last few weeks been up and down but for the better really.We where in his garden the other week before weather changed.He really enjoyed it but gets angry as he not got the strength in him to a lot and as he accepted with being 88 now he is getting a wee bit older.We enjoyed out in the sun in his garden but since then the weather changed again and we not be back out in garden.
Other things going on well Liverpool my team done ok this season but not good enough yet and as for the biting last sunday just eeemmm at moment with Liverpool.Just hope that we start to get things right and next season will be better for Liverpool.Ant and Dec  series  this last month was brilliant me and my dad where in stitches watching the live shows on the saturday nights.Thats what entertainment should be like on a saturday night.Yes then Simon Cowell back on BGT and the first two shows been great with the good and bad acts on.I even watched the rest of the show on ITV2 to see most of the acts and how they performed and the judges aswell as Ant and Dec. BGT looking good this series.
Still been doing my wee bit exercising each day to get rid of my fat and feel good.Did add a bit more instead of just the minimum exercises what i do.As before back to doing 200 sit ups in the hour exercises and swimiming 60 lengths aswell twice a week.Infact just thinking each exercise i do i have done more on each one.Thats a bonus to myself.Hot radox salts bath this saturday night as a bonus treat to myself.
Its been over 3 years now since i started doing my wee bit exercises to get rid of my fat and still cant shift the fat. Will keep doing my wee bit exercises going as it makes me feel good with myself.
My 2 cats Teefa and tabitha   have been here now 5 months and they are brill.Today made me laugh they played cat and mouse with each other around the house and then as Teefa afternoon snooze.Tabitha her own entertainment went outside and started to bring the leaves in.Now a cat bringing leaves in the house i not seen before.
As other things been going in my life i cant tell you about but on my facebook you can see a few more new friends on there as they are great to be friends with.Infact certain few of them just knocked me of my feet when i see there new pics etc.Now thats what i call  entertainment for myself.
So as life goes on its the 24th April 2013 and iam doing not to bad for time being.
                          Adrian

Good Thinking March 2013

This last month been taking time out on a lot of things in my life.Yes me been thinking about whats going on in my life and what i will make happen in the future for real in my life.Taking me big steps forward in my own personal life.For which should make my life happier to live in.Some of my own decisions i made this last few years  made really think when and why did i really decided them when i knew i was not ready for them.The certain things what held me back from being happy is cause of my decisions made on someone in me.What was wrong but i belived they where.So me being me after i wrote the last post.Made me think hold on Adrian time to kick the negative vibes out of me more and make my own real decisions myself.To get the positive vibes back in me.After the last few years my feelings have been burnt bad and its time now to kick start my life and not let them get burnt again.
The last weeks with doing a lot of thinking.Just need to get things right for myself to make my life better and to be happier aswell.So what i want i will get for real.Iam not going to wait anymore just will make things happen for real for me.Infact a lot out there will not like it but its my life and i will do it for me not you!
So with me being like that the last year etc stopped me from progressing forward in my life.Even work etc never went right either.It was that blip in me what was stopping me being happy.Took a lot of hard thinking each day this last few weeks.Why and what was going on with my life.Now iam stepping forward with my life.My head clear of the negative vibes.Time to let the positive vibes flow out of me in style in my life.
                             Adrian

Sunday is about closing for me

This weekend been a wee bit different for me.After 6 days of doing my wee bit exercising yesterday felt really good in myself.With my dad getting better after his fall 3 weeks ago is the main bonus.Dad being 88 now and relises he is getting a wee bit older now.Belive it or not.Think dad has accepted he is getting older.
Even my team Liverpool win yesterday as i watched them and great to see them play well and score 4 aswell.So today my lazy sunday chill out day has been ok even broke my rules no exercising but had a hot radox salts bath this afternoon for 45 mins and it felt great.As my chill out day is coming to an end the good feeling factor is back in my bones.After having a better weekend for myself.

Me being Expendable

Me being Expendable proved to me lately why iam expendable for real.Yes in my past been ups and downs in my life but at the same time being used for any purpose aswell by anyone anytime.I relised that a long time ago i was expendable and will never change in my life.When a real friend needs a ear and a shoulder to lean on me.They know iam there for them no matter what.That is real friends of mine.But i got so called real friends who do use me and jump out the frying pan straight back into the fire.They still expect me to be there for them.But me being me i know where i stand and so called friends i take a step back from them.My real friends do not do that to me and that is when they are back on there feet i feel so proud that i helped them to manage to get back on there feet.As i know they are there for me if i need them forever.Thats real friends.
The so called friends can be so easy at fooling me.As i give them my best advice i get the bad feeling in my bones something not right.After what they been through from abuse and there kids get hurt in the process.So i give even more positive advice i can.But when things do not add up what they are doing after my advice.I have to step back and look at the picture to what is going on with the so called friend.As time goes by not hear anything from my friend but me being me just search about to find out whats going with the so called friend and her kids.Then i find out why i had bad feeling in my bones as the friend jump out of the frying pan straight back into the fire!
So after all my advice did not go anywhere with my so called friend.But as i know the friend will be back to lean on me and my ear again to start again.You see me being and my advice only its up to who iam talking to what decision they make for themselves.In the process me helping anyone out my feelings never get involved as they are closed off.After being in a bad relationship or bad marriage the last thing my friend wants is a relationship straight away.You see i know not to jump in the deep end but some so called friends did that and they drowned.They came back to me for my help but then found i was a bit different towards them.Not in a bad way just iam more cautious and still give them the best advice.Then its up to them to make the right decisions for themselves.
Also in my work when i get some iam expendable and i get used by any company etc to do work for them no matter what it is.When i get used by certain work an odd time they know i do the work 100% whether i come back or not but they know its done complete.
Thats a bit more about me and you can read back the last 8 years on my blog to see iam just me.
                               Adrian
                         

yes end of another week

Well after my team Liverpool scoring 3 last night was just 1 short to go through to the next round.But Liverpool played there hearts out last night and just couldnt get the goal what they need to put them through to next round.Liverpool i supported you all my life and seen the good bad and ugly scenes at Anfield and still you get through it.
Other things this last week one thing i get my fitness back i think did manage 60 lengths yesterday.Infact did my full training schedule yesterday and it tired me out but felt really good.What i have to do to get rid of the fat of me.Also this last week things moved forward for me even though someone tried to knock me back down and they couldnt.As a few more positive vibes back in me will not let them and that feels good.So things actually looking better in my life now at long last.This weekend could be really  interesting but one thing for sure i will enjoy my hot radox salts bath tomorrow night for sure.Will be brilliant for me to chill out in :-)
 You all have a good weekend
                Adrian

My weekend is nearly over.

Well after a long week getting my fitness back after being ill.My weekend is closing off on my chill out day perfect.Even watch my team Liverpool beat Swansea.Yes we actually scored 5 times against them.After what happened to Liverpool last thursday thank god they scored today.So this next thursday we have to play and score again like we did today in Anfield.Anyways my weekend went ok with things going better for me.
This next week got a few ideas up my sleeve what have been there hibernating for to long.Time they come out to play.That will be a big boost for me providing they go to plan for me.So myself will just make them work perfect and then i can take a big step forward in my life for real.
Yes its sunday night and been a good weekend for me and my dad is getting even better aswell.So all in all things are going good for me at moment.
                         Adrian

End off my week without flu bug :-)

Been over a week since flu bug left my body thank god.But just being grounded with bug for 6 days knocked my body out of shape.This last week been just doing min exercises to build myself back up.Did swim 50 lengths yesterday i was knackered.Today did full separate 2 hours exercises felt really good.
My dad is getting better his shoulder is healing after his wee fall two weeks ago.With dad being 88 will take longer to heal but with dad being a bad patient like mum use to say when he was ill.He is a patient from hell but he is getting better which is good.So this last 2 weeks had to bite my tongue when with him each day and even with me having  flu bug i still carried on looking after dad each day.
So as end of this week for me and things going a wee bit better for me and dad.Looking better for us.

Weekend is here sun is out aswell

Yes its saturday morning and the sun is out but freezing aswell.This last week got rid of the dreaded flu bug out of me on thursday.It drained the strength out of me so need to take my time in getting fit again.Been out on walk this morning and hell it was hard going but felt really good.Bonus is now will improve myself better.
On thursday was my dads 88th birthday and he had a good day aswell as he is slowly getting better after his fall and twisting his shoulder bruising it bad.With some of family round to see him with of course a few bottles of whiskey birthday presents for him.Dad being dad after they all left and i was sitting with him and dad says fancy a wee drink and i said yes.So dad opened his present of whiskey and we had a wee dram together.Friday morning in with dad massaging his shoulder and he said he felt better best have a wee dram more often at night as he slepted better last night.His shoulder is getting better but will take time to heal.
Thinking  about it its been around 4 years since the last time i got that dreaded  flu bug in me.My defences in my body where down and thats how the dreaded bug got in me.Flu bugs from hell.
As with being grounded with flu bug the last week.As its gone from me now thank god.Time to have fun.

Monday 28th January 2013

The dreaded flu bug got me on saturday.My nose is running in style and no strength in me either.Still cant shake it out of me ahhhh. After 2 days of snow and my team Liverpool getting beat and the bloody rain is back and the flu bug in me.What a great weekend i had ahhhhhhhhhh.
Will sweat this flu bug out of me in style this afternoon.
Also the dreaded train company ScotRail still not give me my money back yet.They say in there terms and conditions have they have up to 28 days to return the money.If not then the ball in my court and iam taken it to there highest point of ScotRail as the owner is responsible for ScotRail Steve Montgomery who runs the ScotRail which means you stole my money.
ScotRail customer service do not have a clue what is right to say to customers.This morning i had the third manager from there call centre in Plymouth telling me again the money will be with me next week.Now thats the third manager told me that from ScotRail customers service in the last 4 weeks .Mine you they lost my letter what i sent to them with the tickets in and then said they did have my credit card number etc.This all started on the 26.11.12  and still on going as Steve Montgomery ScotRail you stole my money and will not give me it back.
What ScotRail  has done to me they done it to other customers aswell with there money they not returned.With me being  c.s.i customer service investigator  this is right up my street to get sorted out and get my money back what ScotRail stolen from me.
Now time for hot radox salts bath to sweat this flu bug out of me.

Start of another week in January 2013

Sort of things going how i want them to this last 7 days.Makes a change as no one kicked me in the teeth yet this year omg iam in shock.Reason being as iam in the progress making things happen how i want it to happen with my own decision.Even over this last weekend it went better and infact looking to good for me.But it went smooth and iam not complaining at all.With Liverpool winning on saturday afternoon just was credit to watch them to play as a stronger team.
Yes start of my week with a smile on my face.
                      Adrian

Friday 11.01.13 End of my week

Belive it or not this last week i laughed so much tears run down my face.Thankyou mrs Brown.Also this last week started to move one with mylife a bit more.To what i want to do.You see me doing it for myself is going ahead and feels so good.Yes being here give me a lot of time to think to myself what i really want.This last few days went through a lot what i done last year and hope that this year not to make the same bad mistakes etc again.Otherwise once bitten twice shy now.
Things are not all that bad in my life nowadays just got to make sure more real positive coming out of me and not to be  negative vibes in disguise coming out of me.This last week nearly back into my exercising up to scratch but hell can feel it in my leg muscles.Done them good having a break from exercising for a few days This weekend going to be good as nowt planned but sunday big game my team Liverpool playing Man u  at there ground going to be good cant wait.Another week over with life goes on
                            Adrian

Sunday 6th January 2013

After 6 days in to the new year no much change at all.Yes seen new year in myself infact so quiet and with no alcohol in me at all.So yes old year gone and new year here time to make my life work better.Lets see if i can get things right this year.That means what i want to happen for me will happen for real.No more sitting about on the waiting game for someone else to make things happen for me.Yes will make things happen myself.Then i can kick my own arse if it goes wrong.Making my own decisions what i want for myself will take pressure of my shoulders than waiting for someone else who thinks they can run my life.No more pressure on me as i do not need it.I had a belly full from last year when i didnt make things work when i should have but hold on i was not calling the shots.You see no more of that to happen its me only me will do what i want to do from now on.Sick of playing the waiting games waiting for someone.
Yes its 2013 and iam middle age and time i start to enjoy my own life in style the way i want to do it.
Also this last week so much for paltalk it still no sounds or cams in the rooms and when you ask the help room all they say it was the hurricane 2 months ago caused the problem in certain servers.Excuse me paltalk crap and you get or money to pay your ways but all you doing is laundering money so you got it in your back pocket with out paying tax to any country.The servers you use you not really pay them enough do you paltalk.The other thing is Google are taking over on a lot of music on there play and since they launched there play music .Seems paltalk you are losing your cheap connections on certain servers as Google stepped in on the servers with strong connections and kicked you off paltalk of your cheap connections.Anyways thats life with paltalk it works or not works as you never can get a straight answer from paltalk but they take your money.Not very good customer service paltalk.
So normal life is still going on and hell today iam smiling as Liverpool through to next FA cup round with winning today.Just hope we can keep it up and carry on building a strong team at Liverpool FC this year.
If you want to read any part what i wrote on my blog over the last 8 years its all in my history of my blog.Infact makes me cringe at some of what i wrote in some of it.As last week was reading a lot of my past blog what i wrote.But thats all in the past and not the future in my life.Just will try and do better this year and not make stupid mistakes or decisions again.
This first week of mine is over with and ready for next week and better swim aswell before i get fat again!