My Good+Bad+Ugly Year 2012 Comes To An End

Yes last day of 2012 and looking back since the start of 2012 in my life its been Good Bad and Ugly for me.Infact more Bad and Ugly than Good just a part of my life.As reading through it and seen what dreaded mistakes i did omg infact was in a another gear in my life.Then things just went bad as i didnt see what was really going on.Yes my feelings where going strong then ripped apart without me knowing until it was to late.Part of my life i will make sure it never happens again to me in the future.I cant change the past all i can do is make my future better.
To make things happen what i really want to happen i will make it happen for real.Without waiting for someone to make those decisions like whats happened in 2012.This is me talking now and only my own decisions in future.For once putting myself first and will get what i want for real no if or buts at all.
As work side same again struggle in 2012 to get permanent work as work here is scarce unless you work for an agency and then you cant make money just get in debt.I did get my SIA passed which will help to get work.So 2013 will be looking for work more away and just even part time work away will better than none at all.I have all my cv up to date with everything what i can do.The other thing is will go and see in person to companies i want work from.As i know that applying online or send application in is like a needle in the haystack to get work from the companies.
Yes its nearly end of 2012 as i write this for the last time this year.
            Wish you all Happy New Year All The Best For 2013
                                          Adrian

14th December 2012

Yes half way through december with winter here and this last 2 weeks its gone from rain to freezing like a yoyo.When freezing for a few days it did get below -6 at night and hovered -1 all day but no snow yet.Then of course the rain took over and with the ground frozen it was black ice all over.It grounded my power walking aswell.As i couldnt get grip and you cant see the black ice.So with out walk been doing xtra circuits at home.Infact be happy to get the walking back as its harder workout on my body doing an xtra circuit using my toys.Yes winter is here.
As other things going work side of it been quiet even though coming up to xmas.Just a few customer service problems i stumbled on what iam sorting out.The Scot Rail customer service carry on over my daughters tickets is still on going as still not got my money back yet.On news last night said Scot Rail workers are going on strike.So you Scot Rail you better give me my money back before strike.
This last few days a few weird things happened online my broadband was cut off for some reason while they did work at exchange but never connected my connection.So back on dial up slow for nearly 2 days.Its ok now as they got it back up running yesterday.Thank god for that.The other thing dont know what they are doing to facebook but cant get my history loaded up or anyone elses either.But can do it on mobile but not on laptop or desktop.Sent a message to facebook to find out whats going on but no reply yet.So if you are using facebook the last few days you would have noticed you cant look at your time line etc.Seems this started since the app they added on 2012 year review on your profile.Cause since it appeared beginning of week this is when the blip problem started and you cant get looking at you or any of your friends profiles etc online in desktops or laptops.Facebook you got a problem get it sorted out.
One thing in my life since the weight was lifted of my shoulders more this last month things are going to plan what i want to make happen for real.Positive vibes stronger in me now and thats what i not felt in me for a long time being so strong in me.
Yes its friday afternoon and the weekend just a throw away so you all enjoy your weekend the best you can.
                         Adrian  TTFN

Last Day Of November 2012

This last month been more interesting for me for the good and not for the bad .Now that makes a change for me.Even this last 2 weeks got my brain working even better and feels real good.Weird or what ;-)
With being last day and its winter time here and it was -4 here last night and still about -1 at moment.So no rain today yeeeahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
With me having more positive vibes flowing out of me now.Stepping forward in my life feels so good.Being so long stuck in a rut took time to get of out of it.A few weeks ago i certainly did get out of it and the weight lifted of my shoulders.Now that i have been released from that weight on me hold.There is stopping me now.
As i know in myself for real now i can do what i want to do and make things happen for real  not just dream.
For so long this last year been stuck in the rut not making things happen what i wanted to really happen for me.Now as big changes in me with full of positive vibes flowing out of me.I will not just sit about and wait and things not happen anymore.What i want will happen for real not just fake dreams by someone telling me  they want and from me to do but just dream .This is my real life iam on about not just internet fantasy.
What proved it more to me was shopping yesterday and in two shops what i go in.The staff where not there usual happy going customer service.Me with some of my worked what i do picked up on it straight away.Even some who where working could not look me in the eye.Then the penny dropped when the boss said to one of her workers and the way she spoke to her in front of customers to her.Thats when the penny dropped why the staff where not there usual selfs.Even some more customers i seen them away from that shop and they said to me it was like that the day before aswell.With me being me i will get that sorted and see why the one in charge in that butchers treating her staff like crap and no happy customer service.Will let you know when i find out more.Anyways the other shop where i get my veg at on the market normally they chat to customers and go with the flow as i known them a long time but they where on a off day aswell.Reason being there manager was there and god i could cut the atmosphere out with a knife.I seen what he is like before and treating his staff like that is not on.So will find out more and see what i can do there for the customer service and staff.
My daughter needed train ticket to go and see here friend in Stirling and asked dad can you get it for me.Yes i can.So on national rail train times and booked and paid for her return ticket from scot rail.Listening to radio 2 lunch time on tuesday and Jeremy Vine going on about Scot Rail customer service and what they said about someone being hit by train on there line. My daughter  tickets arrived for her to travel on wednesday
But she called me and said it would be thursday to travel but on outward ticket it was only valid one day.So called Scot Rail up to get it changed but then i found out what there customer service is like.They said to change it cost £10 admin fee.I paid £26 for tickets and £6 recorded delivery to make sure they where here.But then as i got tickets online they said i could cancel them and it would cost £10 and only refund £16 to me.I said only need outward ticket changed can they do that at ticket office at Lockerbie train station.He said he would ask them and to me to call him back on wednesday afternoon.For which i called scot rail customer service like i was asked to.Then was told that the ticket office would not replace ticket and the only thing i could do is get a total refund but only £16 as they charge £10 admin fee to get my money back.OMG Scot Rail where is your customer service.Infact i ask for where call centre is and it is in Plymouth in England not in Scotland. Great Scot Rail has call centre in Plymouth no wonder no work in Scotland.Also it takes 28 days to get my money back of them.Not very good customer service from Scot Rail.So with me having my thinking head back on customer service this last week iam on full power time to get those customer service problems sorted out and get all my money back from Scot Rail.
So last day of November things looking up for me in my life at long last.Feels so good.
                         Adrian

Good Think After My Own Space

Last night in my own space just what i needed.A break away from everything in my own space.Then today on my chill out day.Around breakfast time i new from last nights my own space and now that i was nearly slipping into making my past my future again.Yes a quite a few years ago thats why my life was not going forward.As i was living my past in the future.Took big change in my life for me stop living in the past and go forward in my future.This last few weeks i didnt click in to the right gear and was not until last night in my own space before i relised what was happening to me.Nearly back to the past in my future in my life.Now i stopped it happening again to me.
This morning waking up after good sleep.The feeling in my body was more determine to make things happen for real in my life what i want to happen.Now its time for me to move on even more and no one can stop me what i will make happen for real in my life.
This weekend just made me think even better to myself and making things what i want to happen for real in my life.
                   Adrian

Its Friday Evening Weekend is nearly here at last

A lot going through my mind this last week and made my eyes open up even more.When thinking about really it was about certain parts in my life i hadnt really opened back up.Yes they are there just been in hibernation for a while.As me going through some parts of it did make me relise a few strong points what is actually going on now with me.So with waking up my safe memory banks in my head.They made me even make better decisions this last few days about whats going on now in my life.On tuesday i got a shudder down my spine.Now when i get that feeling i know something will happen.Right enough it did happen when i was told about something even though it was totally opposite what i give advice out on.Ok i can only advise and its up to you what ever you do whether i like it or not.
Yesterday when in Carlisle yes i was swimming a bit after swim me feeling so good in myself well the words just rolled of my tongue.What a feeling that puts me in makes my eyes work even better aswell.I was going with the flow in style yesterday while in Carlisle.Thats a feeling i like to have more.Been to long without  that feeling in me.This morning woke up done my hour exercise and it went better aswell.All because the good feeling back in my bones.
Yes its friday and my last week went better for me as i do have the positive vibes back in my bones and going with the flow.You all have a good weekend take care.
                               Adrian

Another week gone by in my life

The last 7 days been sort of up and down but did manage to have my treat last saturday night it was bliss ;-)
Before you say anything no woman was involved.I had my hot relaxing radox salts bath last saturday night.Was in it around 45 mins and it was bliss.Now that is my own treat to myself.Will do it again tomorrow night aswell.Yes my treat to myself.This last few days aswell got my body nearly back up to peek again as its taken a bit longer than i thought after i pushed myself.After 4 weeks driving and on SIA course/test and just went straight back into my exercising but when swim i pushed my body to much and it give in.
Thats never happenned to me before.Hell i felt it and nearly just folded up in deep end of pool.Yes i pushed it to far.Lucky enough i didnt rip any of muscles to bad.It took until thursday to get back in to my routine on my exercises.I did them all on thursday and took some doing but i loved it.This morning my muscles felt it but  they are going ok which is good for me.
Last week when i wrote about Npower and what they did to my friend Andrea about the gas problem.They still not sorted it out yet.But this morning Robert who works for Npower as customer goodwill gesture for Andrea over whats happened and she accepted it.But the problem what Npower have is still on going.Now its time for me i can step forward with there customer service problem Npower have.As my friends case is clsoed but me being me and being a customer service investigator.I know they have a mega problem at Npower customer service time i did my work against them.
Last night watched Liverpool and they played a bit better and we won aswell.Things looking on the bright side for Liverpool at moment but hold on we got the neighbours Everton on sunday.Now that is one game we have to play the best we can and beat them.I will be glued to tv on sunday kick off at Evertons ground.
Its friday and the  weekend is nearly here you all have a good weekend.
                         Adrian

My week is closing off in style ..

This last week things went even better than i thought they would for myself.Only wee problem taking a bit longer to get fit again after not doing much exercises for 3 weeks.So since start of week just doing my minimum exercises just to build up.Thursday swim got to 44.Today did do my full hour exercise twice and hell my muscles can feel it tonight.So being back to minimum exercises this last 5 days paid of me.
Got 2 calls this afternoon by 2  different women.With both making me smile. First of all Lesley called me to tell me i past my SIA course.Thankyou Lesley you made my day see for coffee very soon.
Then Nicola called me this afternoon aswell.As for the call its about what the power company is doing to another real friend of mine.But with Nicola from north east and she not a mac but with her twang and mine we got on like house on fire with each other.Even with the power problem Nicola customer service is perfect.So after a wee talk with her and we where smiling and just got to wait and see what the npower head office will do as they are starting to sink.My other real friend Lei made my day even better as we talked and wee bit of fun aswell and made Lei week finish of better for her aswell and i know she will sleep better tonight now.As me being me took some of her stress away from her.So lei could unwind herself.Now that makes me feel so proud of myself taking some of the stress away from her.Sleep well Lei hhuggggg.
Another friend of mine Andrea and her kids moved into a flat not far from me.Yes it was DGHP flat here they allocated for her.Andrea and help from me got her furniture across to the flat.Yes the flat has electric and gas.So in touch with the company who had the meters in the flat.It was Npower who was supply the flat as they where with previous occupants who lived in it.Andrea called them and told them she a new customer and wanted it in her name etc.But she didnt expect customer service from hell treatment to her from Npower.Yes the electric was sorted out ok but the gas is prepaid meter and still in debt from previous occupants.So Npower should have it all cancelled and cleared off.So new customer can start a new account and supply to flat.But Npower dont do that do they!!!!
Andrea called Npower from my house here as she not got phone line in hers yet and i couldnt belive what i was hearing and they where telling what to do.Now she moved in on the 8th october and now the 19th october still not sorted out.She done what they said she had to do even though i said they have to get engineer out to clear and reset meter.But they seem to know Npower customer service sitting on phone telling new customers they know what they are doing.Wrong after Andrea speaking to 2 diferent person on customer service at Npower she was all stressed out .Stll not sorted out but hold on Andrea new customer for Npower and all they done is use and abused her.What was going on??
Still they said go and top up 3 different amounts then prepaid machine will credit etc.But still it wouldnt as the only way to reset a new account on prepaid gas meters is to have the engineer to come out and reset it.
But after the calls to customers service at Npower and Andrea so stressed out and problem not sorted out.I said to Andrea you are to stressed out let me take over and get this mess sorted out.Andrea agreed and let me talk to them.OMG here i go.The manager on at last of Npower explained what was going and she said to try and over 2 days to £1 top on gas to see if meter credited the money what Andrea paid them.But after second top up yesterday still the prepayment machine was still in the previous debt.Now i called the manager who i talked to but answer machine left message.2 hours later i called again answer machine.Hour after that called again and answer machine.Now ball in my court as i dont like talking to answer machines.So on my Google who is the main one who runs Npower time i talk with that person.
Now talked to his complaints dept and the person who i talked to tries and sorts things out before it gets handed over to director of Npower.I explained to her and she said she would get it sorted out and have someone to call me.Hold on still waiting that person to call me.I did say if i didnt hear from them or her by 13hrs  19.10.12 that i will take things even further.NO call from them at all  so much for complaints dept at Npower .Serious  complaint  my friend Andrea and her two children in a new home but will run of gas over the weekend  as she no money to top it up anymore but hold she already has paid nearly £30 into the meter but Npower are playing games with her as they cant do there job correct.
So much of being a new customer for Npower when they cant do there own work correctly.
Me being me this is right up my street as i sort customer service problems out when required to do so.More important this time my real Andrea is involved and i will get her problem sorted out with Npower.Then i will take Npower employees who are guilty doing this to my friend Andrea to the cleaners.Infact the CEO of Npower is responsible for what is going on in the company he runs and he is totally responsible for whats happened to my friend Andrea.As for Npower they have a serious customer service problem.
This weekend is going to be interesting in a lot of ways but one thing for sure i will treat myself to a hot radox salts bath on saturday night as i need to.Then on sunday my lazy chill out will work out better for me.
You all enjoy your weekend have fun.
                      Adrian

End of my lazy chill out weekend :-)

As my weekend been quieter for me.Give me the chance to get a lot sorted out in my head for whats been going on for while in my life.As saturday went through and did a wee bit of exercising aswell.Saturday night done something not done for a long while.Yes treated myself to a long hot radox salts bath for 45 mins.By hell it felt so good didnt want to get out of it.When i did get out on my chill out chair and just lay there for an hour just with my body feeling so good and relaxed.My brain cell was chilled out in style.
Hit my bed and when i woke up this morning felt so good and relaxed after a perfect sleep.Today being my lazy chill out day went ok but me being me cleaned house and done all my washing and ironing aswell and polished.So much for my lazy day but as i know when i start i cant stop.Now as iam writing this thinking what will happen the rest of the night when i get back from dads.Now that is the question.
Anyways shortly i will be clocking up the miles as iam on the move as what i want iam making it happen for real.Certain faces will be shocked for the good to see me.
As i know the itch in my feet has been really strong for a bit now and that is why iam on the move.As i have to do it for myself.The last time i had a strong itch like this in my feet i was away 13 years.This time i dont know how long i will be away but one thing is someone will be really be happy with me being there with them.
Hope you all had good weekend talk to you all soon bye bye now.
                                Adrian

End of my week

The last two weeks for me been a lot different for me.The first week actually found my one and only brain cell and it worked.Talk about me being in shock it did work.The 5 days it work perfect and hope it was good enough to get me passed on the tests for S.I.A.Just waiting for results coming through then i will know.
This last week been sort of eemm for me.Yes its been 3 years since mum passed away on  wednesday 10th october and of course would have been mum and dads 69th anniversary on thursday 11th october and today friday 12th october mums 88th birthday .So these days in october for me are special to me but with mum in my heart and always will be.Me and dad sitting talking with mum in our hearts more this last few days.Dad being 87 at moment and he is doing very well has mum with him all the time in his heart.
End of this week and life goes on  for us.We just have to enjoy our life the best we can.
                                Adrian

First 7 days i made it just!

Well i never the first 7 days of my new year in my life i got through it just.Started of on my lazy sunday with xtra on my lunch break.Now that was not ordered.But hell i sweated eeemmmm yes.Monday did start of ok and got a few things done but as the day went on the weight on my shoulders got heaver in my head.It was not flu bug as no sore throat or blocked nose.Just couldnt shift what it was but my head felt like a vice it was in.Tuesday the same didnt sleep well at all.Tried my hot bath technic and felt ok after it but as day went on still not right at all.Again tuesday and wednesday night did not sleep well.My head was being held down but was not in pain.Whatever bug i picked up it was in me and own ways to cure me was not working.
Not until thursday lunch time i thought will do my hour exercise and sweat and kick the bug out off me.By hell it worked made me feel better.As friday morning didnt wake up soaking in sweat our my hair feel like grease heaven.Yesterday did my hour exercises again but got to watch dont pull my leg muscles and felt good.Friday night had a perfect sleep up this morning feeling great and not soaking in sweat.So this morning out for my Hour exercises and sweated more and iam feeling ok as i write this.In about 30 mins will  go and do another hour exercises and sweat  more.
This next week iam away and dont want any bug in me at all.My lazy chill out day tomorrow might have to change a wee bit for me.
                           Adrian

This weekend is now closing

Been a but different over this weekend for me.Yes a new year in my life has started yesterday.just hope it will be even better than the last year in my life.Just will have to not make as many stupid mistakes this next year in my life.Yes instead of listening to someone and waiting and waiting like i did in the last year of my life.
What iam going to do now is what i want i will make it happen for real not just say so and wait.Time in my life is precious and i will make my life better than it has been.So no more ifs in my life i will get what i want for real.So with yesterday me turning in a new year in my life iam going forward with my own plans as iam bursting with positive vibes now.
Thankyou to all my friends yesterday for birthday greetings for me yesterday made my day my friends even better.Good on you.I broke my rule last night and had a few wee absolute vodkas and playing my air guitar.My birthday night was quiet but hell its not often i can have a wee drink and being happy aswell.
My weekend went very well but only downer was my team Liverpool getting beat today aahhh.So my weekend coming to an end for me.This next week should go ok what is planned for me better do.
                     Adrian

Kyrie - Mr. Mister

End of interesting last 2 weeks

The last 2 weeks in my life been different in a lot of ways.Infact was feeling so good i dont want it to stop.So me being me making sure it doesant stop.Did get a lot sorted out and as for it and its they cant touch me but they will one day very soon walk into me that is when they will eeeemmmmmmmmm.
Really great things happened to me the last 2 weeks aswell.You see it my life is getting back on track in style and i not lost the touch at all.As certain awesome person made sure i havent lost the touch at all.Just only its been shut down stuck on the shelf getting covered in dust.But now all the dust has been blown off and feels great.I knew for a while something needed to happen to prove to myself i havent lost the touch. It happened and blow me god it felt so good no words can describe how i really feel now.
I take things day by day in my life and try and enjoy myself the best i can.With the dust of that part of me now.Gives me more positive vibes flowing out of me now.
Even yesterday did a full day of exercises after had a 2 week break from doing them and felt so good aswell i did a bit more.So today doing my exercise using my toys was perfect but with water cut off couldnt shower straight away.So i used my toys more and hell it felt so good sweating more pushing myself.Water was back on so in shower.So sweat all washed away and i feel so clean now.
Yes its friday evening  and the weekend is about here.This weekend for me will sweat tomorrow in more ways than one.Then on sunday will be an xtra lazy chill out day for me as all my muscles will be get used to the maximum on saturday.
                          Adrian

Owl City & Carly Rae Jepsen - Good Time

My chill out day is about to close for me.

This weekend being busy getting everything done here at home yesterday with being away last week.Chance to catch up with everything in house etc.So that my lazy chill out day would go to plan.Yes it did.
Yes this last week being away really got the itch back in my feet stronger now.So tomorrow pulling all my aces out to use.That will be better for me as iam going and no stopping me.
Seems i got up another person nose for what i write on here and what i do aswell.They dont understand me. When i get told by that person a lot of things i do listen to them  and then i know what to say in response.But hold when that person changes there mind and forgets what they told me in the first place.Now ok my memory is working but even i was checking my own memory to make sure.I only take so much but i know when iam getting spun around in catch 22.Yes iam expendable in my work but in my private personal life i dont like being used as iam not expendable with my heart.
You see been doing a lot of thinking this last week me being away opened my eyes up to what i have been missing.Yes i moved back home 10 years ago to get my life back on track after what happened to me.Since being back here got my life back together back on track.Last week being back in York give the stronger itch in my feet what i needed.Hell it feels so good.So this next week will use some aces up my sleeve to make things happen for me.That means what iam going to do i will do it for myself and its my own decisions for me
So when certain person reads this think to yourself before you saying anything in future to me or about me that you do not contradict what you already said to me in the past.As you done it so many times to me in the past contradicting yourself what you said to me.
Anyways my lazy chill out day is nearly over and hope you all had a good weekend talk to you all soon.
                     Adrian

Its Friday again !!

Yes its friday again for me where did the last 7 days go as they went by so quick for me.Well this last week been more ups than downs in my life.Infact the good feeling in my bones is still there and its getting stronger each day of my life now.Now thats a feeling i cant beat in my bones.This last week aswell after my wee rest of doing any exercises 5 days 3 weeks ago.Iam back in to rhyme of doing what i can do in all aspects.Now that has you thinking ;-)
With whats going on in my life i have stepped forward another step and feels so good aswell.After being down for a long time and now actually iam moving forward in my life.The thing is i will still take things day by day and just go with the flow of positive vibes flowing out of me.
So apart from getting on with my life this last week not a lot of things going on.Sounds boring but it has not been at all.Just one of those weeks we all have when it goes by quick and we think we done nothing at all
You all have good weekend as i will try to in this wet weather again.
                               Adrian

Its friday and iam smiling aswell omg

This last week well things as i said in last post are all going to plan.yes iam stepping forward in my life and hell it feels so good.Just have to keep going forward and not let any it knock me backwards again.
I blew the dust of part of me and i should have done it a long time ago but was not ready.Yes the last so many years knew i wasnt ready but the last 8 months held me up more aswell.Took until  10 days ago before i knew i was ready to do what i can.So the dust is blown off my memory banks in my head and so far this last 10 days its feels so good.The missing positive vibes part in me is back no wonder the feeling in my bones was so powerful 10 days ago.
To tell you its been a long time in my life since i felt full of positive vibes back in my body.I didnt think i would get them back in at all in my life but 10 days ago i got the total positive vibes feeling back in me.No wonder my body wouldnt  move 10 days ago when i woke up to do my hour exercise but my body refused.Wouldnt mind if i had been drinking or feeling ill but i wasnt ill or had been drinking.My body telling me after two and half years of doing exercises each day just to rest.Me thinking whats going on but it wasnt until during that monday when the positive vibes really kicked in my bones powerful.That feeling i never had for a very long time in my life.No wonder my body refused to move and do any exercises.So last week each day just in a world of my own known iam back.Took some getting use to last week as the normal me is back.
So this week with me walking on air and stepping forward in my life and full of positive vibes flowing out of me.Proved to me my patients in my life paid of as in me sort of knew i would be back.
So i got my life back at long last and the weekend is nearly here and i will enjoy as i will sweat even more and could  break my rules and have a few drinks aswell.Yes iam in a happy mood with positive vibes flowing out of me.You all have a good weekend as i will for sure:-)
                          Adrian

Near end of my week 17th Aug 2012

Its been nearly 2 weeks since i was last in the mood to write on here.Things going on in my life and the last 2 weeks proved to me its worth while.Last week after busy week last weekend proved to me i can sweat more.Infact it felt so good it didnt stop all weekend.As i loved it pushed myself a bit more and sweated more friday,saturday and on my lazy chill out day sunday aswell.Monday morning this week at 5am i couldnt get my body to work out after the hard work out all weekend i had.So had a good think and my body telling me rest is required.So me being me for the first time in two and half years i will give my body a rest for the week.
By hell its hard to do as yesterday in city i was nearly pushing myself to go and swim but i didnt as i was on rest for the week.
OMG i will get fat but rest doing me great as given my muscles a rest.Today here at home this afternoon it got the better of me as i new sweat was building up inside me and my muslces needed to work out.So after 5 days not using my toys dust was blown off them and i used my toys and hell it felt so good.Just didnt do my power walk.So i used my toys 3 times(600 sit ups) and sweated yes and wanted to use them more.I didnt as didnt want to damage any of muscles.So after 5 days of rest and chilling out using my toys felt so good for me.
Now got that good feeling back in my bones even better now and i know this next week my life will change for the better me as i always wanted it to.What i want i will make it happen and this next week it will happen.
Also this last week with me on rest week my brain been working out better and work side of things for me looks like going to plan.As i have decided to do a part of my work what i use to do to do it again.
Me being me i blown all the dust of them files in me so that i can do that work again.Its right up my street and it does make me feel even more proud of myself.Its been there quiet for a long time in my life after whats been going on in my personal life.But this last week i knew to make me even prouder of myself iam going to have to do as i really need to do it.So its time restart my life even better and be so proud of being a man again in my life.Yes i already started this last few days and its working omg iam back!
Liverpool kick of tomorrow start of i hope a better season for my team this time.
You all have a good weekend  have fun as i will and will sweat more yessssssssssssssss
                      Adrian
p.s Scroll down and you will see what i do in my hour exercise ;-)

Chill Out Sunday Day Is About To Close For Me.

Since i wrote 7 days ago things are actually going a step forward in my life.Infact better than i thought that makes a change.As in my past i normally get kicked backwards than forwards in my life.
Must be cause i have the positive vibe feelings back in my bones after long time being negative vibes in my bones.By it feels so good have positive vibes in myself in my life.
Anyways even my weekend went good aswell.Yes did use my toys a bit more yesterday aswell and felt so good.So decided this week on tuesday and thursday after swim will use the gym at the pool for an hour.Now that will get the sweat out me straight away instead of waiting until i got home to do an hour exercise using my toys.It will take me a few times to get to using toys in the gym but will work out a hour program for after swim.Today my lazy chill out sunday day has gone ok and i feel good about it.
End of my weekend and iam ready for this next week. As i have plans to set in this week for my future.As iam stepping forward in my life.
                      Adrian

Weekend over Monday is here..

After a quiet weekend and give myself time to think about what serious things going on in my life and what will happen to me very soon aswell.Saturday did get my wee bit of exercising done and a wee bit more aswell.My lazy chill out sunday yesterday went very well.As i just sat back with good thinking whats going happen soon.Just so that iam positive in what iam going to be doing in the future.Yes i know my life will change in what iam going to do.As the missing part in my life will be filled to make my life complete.You see for so long in my life there has been a missing part of me.This is why iam stepping forward in my life now and that missing part of me will be gone.I have been waiting and waiting but as i made the decision myself.To what i want i will make it happen for real.Then there is no ifs in my life or missing part in my life.
You see me thinking really hard yesterday as i chilled out at the same time.Made my brain work better and give more positive vibes in my bones.Now that feeling when i do get it feels so great in me so powerful.Yes so iam going forward in my life even  better now.
                         Adrian

eemmm yes end of my week

This last week things getting close to me push the button but at last minute they paused me for a bit.Yes iam on the phone who i have been writing about.So at moment ball still in my court and depending what they do and dont do if i will hit that release button of the evidence so you all can read.
Anyways away from that my week has gone really well infact a bit better than i thought it would.As for other things going on when i said what goes around comes around in a post a bit ago.Well that has gone back on a certain thing to the it who caused the pain in the first place.They will get use to being an it.
Ahh one thing the last few days kick started my body to get fit again after 2 weeks of being busy doing other things and hell my body can feel it.Did manage 80 lengths yesterday but i had to push myself to get them done.Today i thought i did do 5 hours of exercises yesterday and after 2 week break no wonder i was tired out.Ok yes 2 days of the week i do 5 hours of my exercises the other days 2 hours only and sunday my lazy day.What i have to do to stop me going fat again.But after i did that yesterday my brain was working better and i was coming up with plans better than i thought.
Today even more positive vibes coming out of me.God i love that feeling in me.
As this weekend nothing really planned for me but got an ace up my sleeve think i will use it :-)
You all have a good weekend TTFN
              Adrian

Update on mobile phone company

Well the mobile phone company have stopped me publishing whats been going on.As before 16.00hrs today they sorted things out to a certain degree with me to stop me publishing what is going on.So they did not let the last thin line break and sink them.But lets just see what they will do now and get problem sorted out.But for a long while ahead of us until its sorted out the mobile phone company is walking on egg shells until its sorted out correctly this time.Lets see what happens and what they can do or not do.
                     Adrian

Wet Monday Again here

Belive it our not yes again wet monday here.I got soaked three times.Cooled me down on my speed walk.Anyways as it is 16.00hrs now and the mobile phone company where i have a problem with only had to 16.00hrs today but they got a life line now for another 24hrs.So they have the last life line until 16.00hrs 24.07.12 to get the problem sorted out but if for some reason they dont.I will hit that button and will publish it all on every site i know.That means mobile phone company if not sorted out within the next 24hrs i will not stop and publish it all.Up to you mobile phone company as its your last life line you have now.
Why is it today the good feeling factor is in my bones and its only monday but hell it feels so good.
                      Adrian

Weekend is here :-)

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My weekend is about to close for me.....

Over this weekend things a bit different for me.First of all the mobile phone company what i was on about my post on friday.There customer relations got in touch with me by phone saturday afternoon.A customer goodwill gesture from them was offered to me.Not a lot but just to keep me quiet until they investigate the problem with what is going on.Otherwise they bought themselves time to try and sort there problem out.But me being me let see what they will do solve the problem out cause so far they have not.Otherwise the next few days i will see what they say if not i will publish it all.Ball is in my court now!!!
My dad is slowly getting a bit better as now over an week since dad fell over.But as doc said could be a few weeks before he recovers from it.But dad tonight is starting to improve which is very good.
So tonight iam here at home now just chilling out and will hit my sack in a bit and iam ready for this next weeks ventures after good feeling in my bones while i write this.
                            Adrian

Near end of my week

Will i never this last few days things actually moving a few steps forward in my life.Hell it feels so good even today i wrote on my facebook  What Goes Around Comes Around !  Why i wrote it as what sort of happened the last months etc its gone back round to the one who caused the problem.I cant wait to see there look on there face when i they walk into me.As iam on the way there so they will walk into me.Told you what goes around comes around.
Anyways away from that my dad is a wee bit better but will take time to get his strength back and muscles heal aswell.This afternoon he was came here to my house for a wee walk and it was great he decided to get out of his house.With the sun out aswell dad just took his time to walk here and did it ok.But as doctor said to dad it could take a few weeks to heal the bruising after his wee fall last saturday night in his living room.
After my swim yesterday of shopping but was in BMs and got a wee surprise while i was shopping now that made me smile.That was after looking in so many shops for new watch strap for my dad.Also got a wee message on my whatsapp aswell but who from yes it was my real friend Claire who got herself on whatsapp.Now thats 2 Claires in matter of an hour made me smile.My thursday was going very well.Back home at dads and he was doing a bit better aswell.Think the sun has to come out more often to play.
Infact today with dad out for a walk and getting a bit better making my day go better for me.
Last night was writing a report up for over an hour  and sent it this morning all directors of a certain mobile phone company.They have until midnight tonight get back to me but if they dont the evidence what i have against them is 100% perfect and i will publish it over weekend.They will lose customers etc as whats been going on.I cant write anymore or mention there names etc now as its in limbo waiting to see if they do get back to me or not.
No its not my work i bought a new mobile from them and now i have the 4th replacement phone here.It still crashes like the other ones did.They only released this phone 5 weeks ago meant to work right but between the company what selling them and the company who makes them dont want to talk to me as the customer service is out the window.I have tried and tried and in the end i wrote an email and sent it to all the directors of the phone company and the company who made it.To see if i can get there attention with the serious problem they have with this new phone they released 5 weeks.But so far still no response from them.
Iam being patient as i did give them to midnight tonight to get back to me if not then i will roll the ball and will make them suffer in there pockets.
Anyways iam smiling for certain reasons this week and i feel so proud with myself.Thats means the its still cant touch me hahaha.
You all have a good weekend as i will i know i will :-)
                     Adrian

Its been 7 days since i last posted on here

Its been 7 days since i wrote on here.This last week in my life sort of up and down as my life goes on.Certain things went better for me but a few things tried to knock me down but did not succeed.Infact in a way they tried to but proved to myself that iam better than the its who tried to knock me down.Makes me feel proud of myself that they didnt knock me down.Other things aswell this last week 2 of my plans where in pencil are now down in black and white and they will really happen.Cant wait to see the look on some ones face.
Saturday night spent with my dad and we talk about so many things and great conversation we had.But when  dad went to get up his knee give in and he fell straight over and catching his head on the table.I was in his kitchen when this happened.But got dad picked up and cut on his nose and ear after fall.He is ok now just a bit bruised.Dads knee does an odd time slip like that but with out walking stick in his hand he just stumbled down and caught head on table.Anyways he is ok now and iam just going over now to see him at his house
Last week i mentioned about my real friend Lei and being away with her daughter Lana as they had  great time being away on a break. But when home her other daughter Angel was bitten by mosquito and ended up in hospital.Her in hospital thursday but got the right medicine to cure her and was back home last night.Angel is now taking it easy after being bit.
Last night talking to my real friend Gale and she still not touched any cigs for a while now and cut the drink down aswell.Now my friend Gale you feel proud of yourself with not smoking anymore good on you.If you tried Pandoras Box.Just watch it gets harder as go through the box thats when your patients will be pushed over the limit.I know what it was like with me talk about my patients getting pushed over the edge with it.But great way to know your limits and when you know to go and take 5.
I have the  itch is back in my feet and when i get that feeling in my i know i move on in my life as last time i got a strong itch like that in my feet i was away 14 years and had a great time.(wasnt all great all the time)
You all try and have a good week ahead as i will try to.
                        Adrian

Monday is here belive it or not wet aswell ;-)

After a really good different weekend for me infact sitting here now thinking i never want it to stop at all.
But  what was said to me last night is what makes me really feel so proud of myself.Proves to myself the last 7 months has not been a waste of time at all.You see i do listen to you and when positive words come out the real you to me last night just makes me feel so proud of myself.
Now told you all this last 48 hrs been different infact i have step another step forward in my life now and hell it feels great.Now being me and know i cant get one thing wrong so my personal mission iam on will go to plan very well.So nothing can kick me in the teeth.My patients in me will be perfect to make things work perfect.
My real friend Lei had a great time while she was away with Lana last weekend and there pictures show they did have a great time.Its what you really needed for yourself Lei and of course  Lana aswell :-)
Another thing yesterday aswell caught with a real friend of mine Gina on facebook as i seen she commented on Gales page.So request to her and Gina accepted.Well we chatted for long enough catching up with each others gossip.It was great to talk to a real friend after been so long since we talked to each other.Made my day go better thankyou Gina.
So my weekend went even better than i thought but biggest thing was what i was told last night by awesome  before i went to bed  that just closed my weekend of perfect :-)
                     Adrian

End of an interesting week for me

My week started of very well last sunday infact couldnt ask better.Monday rolled in and of course big day 18 years ago as my daughter Diane was born in to my hands.Yes my daughter was 18 on monday.Now was with here most of the day and went for coffee and then when her friend arrived we all went to a pub.Yes me first time in a pub for 6 years omg ;-).No better reason than buying my daughter a drink to celebrate her 18th  birthday.We spent the afternoon in the pub drinking wicked and it went down so well.Talked about a lot and laughed and played pool and darts omg what a laugh it was.As time went on it got around 5pm and Diane and her friend Robynn had to leave as Dianes friends where all be coming to her flat.So of they went to party more.While i stopped in the pub for another hour then headed home.Sort of light headed but feeling great.
Got myself home in one piece and sat down with a smile on my face and then hit my bed for the night.
As my week started of very well knew i was i for a good week.Yes the rest of the week went ok belive it or not.Even with the weather putting a damping on everything around   but not to me as i have even more positive vibes flowing out of me now.
Things in my life starting to look up now as iam moving forwards in my life not backwards anymore.The positive vibes feeling flowing out of me so much stronger feels great.
                              Adrian

Monday morning with a smile on my face

This last weekend  went ok infact my lazy chill out sunday day went even better.Yes iam smiling
Today 25th June as special day for me as around 10am my daughter Diane was born into my arms 18 years ago.Yes my daughter is 18 today and she grew up to quick.My wee baby girl Diane is all grown up now.
Yes its a part of life for everyone we all grow up as we only live once and have to enjoy it the best we can.
After last week what was going on hope this week things go even better for me and so far yesterday and this morning things are going even better in my life.No wonder iam smiling and feeling happy with myself.
                                      Adrian

My week is about to close today

This last week things started of a bit slower on monday.It was one of those days eemmm.My dads wee dog Bobby not very well either.My dad not been sleeping right either being worried about bobby.Bobby been with mum and dad for around 7 years.When mum slipped away nearly 3 years ago.Bobby has been at dad side at home.On tuesday we had to get vet to look at bobby and took sample of blood.When results back in afternoon the vet told dad he was diabetic and things not good at all for bobby.Dad had make a big decision over the next 24 hrs.As Bobby was getting so ill and we could see the pain and he got to the point couldnt really move.As wednesday went by and dad called the vet and said for them to come on thursday let bobby slip away.My dad being very brave as he did not bobby to surfer anymore.Dad and the vet let Bobby go to sleep for ever in dads arms.
After being with mum and dad for so long he now Bobby joins mum in a safe place forever.It will take time for dad to adjust with them not there now but dad knows they are in his heart for real for ever.
So this last week not to good but just being strong with dad and just to help get through each day.
This last week is will close of tonight to me in a different way.
                     Adrian

End of my quiet weekend

Yes was quieter over the weekend for me.Infact give me time to get really chilled out with myself.Only downer was with rain on friday and saturday all day didnt get my power walk done but hell sweated more using my toys here at home.Be glad to get back on power walk in the morning as its easier than using my toys more.Anyways today my lazy chill out day went a bit better for me aswell.Yes the last week feeling the positive vibes flowing out of me and even today they where aswell.Now i can get use to having these feelings all the time in me for a long time.
Anyways this next week iam ready for and i have some wicked plans up my sleeves what will be completed this next 5 days and that will take me a few more steps forward in my life for real.
The days are gone now when it is what if or just if in my life.Instead what i want i will make it happen for real  then my life will be even better for me.With the positive vibes flowing out of me at the moment things will work for me for real.
            Adrian

My Exercise update

This what i do to stop myself being fat and out of shape and bored with my life !
Six days of the week what i do for an hour twice a day.Also on a tuesday and thursday i swim at 33 metre pool at moment 80 lengths.
My hour exercises goes like this.
Arm swings 20 times
Touch toes  50 times
Press ups   30 times
Sit ups       200 times
Leg pulls      40 times
Arm pulls     50 times
1Kilo ankle weights on power walk 1.5 mile  around 30mins
ankle weights taken off
Arm swings 20 times
6 kilo dumb bell for arms 50 times
Sit ups 200 times
Leg pulls 40 times
Arm pulls  50 times
V-Fit Bike   1 mile in around  1.50 mins
Squats    10 times
Press ups 30 times
When i do my exercises  i do have myself a minimum set in myself and as long as i do the minimum  and if any more its a bonus to myself.I do this for myself as iam happy when i do my work outs and makes me feel better.
Sunday is my lazy chill out day with no exercise  done!
                      Adrian

End of an interesting week for me

This last week its been different for me in the better way.Yes i cant belive it my life is getting better now.Through the week positive vibes been flowing out of me and i cant stop them as its making me feel so good with myself.Talk about going with the flow hell its feels so good.
Tuesday in Carlisle in a shop talked to Ashleighs manager Jayne and told her about how good Ashleigh is with her customer service.Jayne asked me to email there head office to let them know.Which i did on tuesday night.The email what i wrote was 100% perfect about Ashleigh and her customer service work.
Thursday back in carlisle went for swim and called into where Ashleigh works and by the smile on her face i knew she read email what i sent.Ashleigh couldnt thank me enough.Ashleigh feeling so proud of herself now.
Also me being me of to get rest of my shopping and with positive vibes flowing out of me even more after talking with Ashleigh.I was on fire yesssssssssssss.
Going through market and words just rolling of my tongue perfect and picking up my veg and cakes then to bus stop.Now at bus stop 2 ladies standing there and i was next to them and my words where perfect and the ladies where tickled with what i was saying..As i talked with the women  there bus arrived they had to leave with smiles on there faces.As today went on i have been on fire all day and smiling to much aswell.
Feeling so proud of myself this last week feels so good to feel like this again in my life.
                         Adrian

smile in my heart this morning when i woke up

Well when i woke up this morning the feeling going through my body felt so good my heart was smiling.
Today while in Carlisle after swim and grab some shopping aswell.On tuesday this last week i was in Poundland  and seen Ashleigh manager Jayne.Tell her that each time i have been in the shop with Ashleigh working either on till or loading shelfs up.That her customer service was perfect always with a smile and treats customers perfect.Jayne asked me to email the comments to her head office for which i did last night.Today when i walked into Poundland and seen Ashleigh  working and by her smile they had recieved email from head office what i had sent.Ashleigh couldnt thank me enough.The words what i wrote in the email where all true and to make Ashleighs day when she read it and its on the shops notice board now.Her customer service is perfect by Ashleigh while she works in Poundland.Made her feel so proud of herself.
Also today while waiting on next bus was talk to two ladies who i not met before and the conversation was perfect.When talked about a few things and seem to tickle  the ladies more.It was great talking with them but then there bus arrived they had to leave
So half way through today my heart still smiling and hell it feels so good with more positive vibes flowing out of me aswell.Its now 4pm here and iam smiling and the sun is out aswell.Will update later through the week with happens with me between now and then.
                                   Adrian

Its My Life midweek update

Well belive it our not iam still going forward .Even though the it again today tried to stop me.The it tried it last weekend and today the it tried again .How fucking stupid does the it think iam.A long time ago the it didnt relise that i cotton on what the it was up to.Since then it was 2+2= 5 all the time with that it!Me being me just had to add it up correct so i know the next step to take with that it.So ok my real friends out there i know what you told me but i need the truth myself to prove what was going on with the it.Now i cant take it anymore and i had enough of that it.
This is just a midweek update as iam still full of positive vibes and iam going forward in my life not backwards.With me being like this its so good of a feeling in my life i never want it to stop.
                        Adrian

Its My Life :-)

Yes end of a really good weekend for me.Even my lazy chill out sunday day got kicked into touch.As been on the go since 5.30am this morning and not stopped all day with doing my exercising and cutting grass most of the day aswell.So no time to chill out at all today until now its  8.41pm and time for me to relax.
So my weekend been really good to me as no it has tried to stop me at all.But one it did try last night but did not succeed as iam not stupid.That it will relise whats its like to get on the wrong side of me in mean time.But water of  ducks back with me at moment as me being in such a good mood since what happened to me on friday night no it will stop me at all.So its sunday night here and yes iam feeling happy with myself with positive vibes flowing out me.Now thats a good way to finish my weekend of.
                   Adrian

Meat Loaf feat. Cher - Dead Ringer For Love

June is here time for a step forward in my life.

After a while now been doing a lot of good thinking to myself about my life and whats going on and what i want  to happen in the future for me.Yes been ups and downs in my past.Well more downs than ups but now decided to change that to more ups.I have been reading my posts and the posts what i have not published aswell.The last 7 months been different in my life and what i wrote its very interesting to me.Private and published posts.
Now even this last week certain things didnt add up right about some one important in my life.Until yesterday the missing piece fell into place.Infact its been missing for a long time and i could not put my finger on it.Until yesterday.Now some of my posts what i written and are private not published.As i read them now they make sense with the missing piece fell in place yesterday.
Now with that happening yesterday made my head clearer about things going on in my life.Now i know how i can step forward in my life with anything holding me back.Me being blinded by letting someone in me i never thought it would happen again to me but it has.But now time i will step forward my head held up high and dont let it happen again to me.
So a lot of things will get sorted out in my life now and i will  go forward in my life and be happy aswell
                              Adrian

Near end of weekend

This weekend went well quiet though.Time to refresh myself the best i could.Today over at dads and helped him with garden as with sun out and hot give us a chance to tidy it up.Dad really enjoyed it out in the sun and doing seeing to his plants etc.While i cut grass and pulled the weeds out what over grown.It was great for dad in his garden in the sunshine for him to be doing something  instead of sitting in house all day.
One other bonus with my Diane here yesterday wanted baking recipes from what her grannie had.Dad still had them all.As dad and Diane going through them they come across  the drop scones recipe what mum made herself.Now as far as i knew we would never no that recipe as only mum new it.As mum died nearly 3 years ago.So thought she had taken it with her.Yesterday dad and Diane found it tucked in the recipes mum had.This next week time to get some flour etc to make some drop scones.yyyeeaahhhhhh
So end of weekend is here and iam ready for this next week as i got a lot of  travelling do.So iam ready for it.
You all have good start to your week take care.
                              Adrian

Midweek update

Well the flu bug is gone from me totally.After being ill for a week just getting back on my feet.Yesterday at Carlisle get shopping etc.Went swimming well i tried to but only could manage 24 lengths as my muscles will take a week or so get my strength back.
Real friends of mine Jasmine,Deborah,Jean, Lei,Gale,Che,Anna been great as they keep in contact with me and being ill they where concerned me.They all happy now for me getting rid of the flu bug.
While me bed ridding with being ill for a week.An it stabbed me in the back as they knew i was ill and not do anything but hold on what ever it steps on my toes anytime.I will take care of that it in my own time as they will walk into me. Then me being real in front of them great to see there colour in there drain out of there face.
What iam doing shortly is on the move from here to there. So have to buy myself a laptop so that i can keep in touch and write aswell etc.As i can not carry desktop with me but it will be my brain at home to work with laptop.
Yes end of football season and my team Liverpool did not to good this last season.Now Kenny has been sacked aswell. Just hope we do better next season when it starts.
By the way after being ill today iam feeling so full of energy and feel so good and two plans today what i need to work  come together and worked perfect for me.Yes my brain cell is working better yyeeaahhhhhhhh
                              Adrian

Michael Bublé - "Haven't Met You Yet" But very soon i will

Why

Why is it when you praise someone for what they done for you.Then they kick you in the teeth !!!

Weekend is about over

Well after the last 7 days having the dreaded flu bug in me.Its actually gone from me today.What a relief to me.As the last 7 days with it in me its been like hell as i could shift it.Everything what i planned for last week was put on hold.Never spent so much time being ill in bed for a lot of years.Now with the dam bug out of me i have to get my strength back in me.This next week i have a lot to time to make up what i lost last week.
With me being ill last week Jasmine knew straight away last sunday as the way my voice sounded.With her heart of gold Jasmine contacted me as much as she could to make sure i was ok.It was great feeling for me that someone thinks so much about me.As the week went on and bug still in me but Jasmine made me smile as much as she could to make me feel better.Yes Jasmine it help in a big way.Thankyou.
Yesterday did start to feel a better and today when i woke up the dreaded bug was gone.So 7 days after getting the bug its now gone.YYYEEAAAHHHHH
Now as its sunday night and just done last of washing and had shower and now i can chill out for the night.
                             Adrian

Been quiet for me

The last few weeks not wrote anything at all just playing tunes.What i do with myself now and then is refresh myself and its only music what goes through me.Thats why some tunes on my blog only appeared.So yes i refresh myself the best possible way apart from last sunday.Something happened to me!!!
I do not know where i picked it up from but a virus bug got in me and on sunday night my throat was like a piece of dry wood.Then on monday morning i couldnt move out bed as i was in bad way with the virus bug in me.Infact so bad couldnt move or do anything at all.Its now thursday night and feeling a bit better but hell the bug has knocked me straight off my feet.I got a smokers cough but i do not smoke.My nose is blocked and iam having hot sweats then freezing.Last night did have a really hot radox salts bath it seemed to help as today feel a bit better.So my life been put on hold until i recover fully.So no exercising until next week hell i will get fat.Infact i think its been about 7 years ago since the last virus bug i caught.
                                    Adrian

Dirty Dancing- Hungry Eyes

Ronan Keating - If Tomorrow Never Comes

This one of my main chilling out tunes. Jean Michel Jarre - Rendez vous 2 - La defense - 14/07/1990

                   

Jean Michel Jarre - Oxygene 2

One of my chilling out tunes......

Expendable

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Weekend is here

This last week been a wee bit different as my plans are coming together.That means in or around 14 days time i will be on the move to make a planned mission get completed for real.As for next 14 days i will just make xtra sure that mission will go ahead with nothing trying to stop me.
With my exercise bike being broken until new fabric belt arrives.Give me a wee reason to do a bit more on each exercise i do.Took my sit ups to 150 now.On tuesday i did something i never done before and i swim 78 lengths of 33m pool.First time in my life to swim that many.Hell it felt really good aswell.Also back on swim on thursday i did another 80 lengths of pool.Also on thursday new fabric belt arrived for bike.So fitted it on and hell it was hard work on bike.As with new belt it made my leg muscles work even better.Feels really good.
Now its saturday dinner time here and i just cooked and going to eat as need food in me.
All have a great weekend.
                Adrian

No Pain No Gain

The last 12 days minus my exercise bike after friction belt broke.So not sweat as much when i do my hour exercise.What did not help matters last week two separate nights i didnt sleep well either.So me being me as i knew i was not right with myself i had to just sit back from doing exercises etc over the last few days of last week.Now thats not like me but hell i knew i had to get better with myself and sleep better.
Monday morning doing my warm up and then my speed walk but with no bike i done 150 sit ups and more leg pulls aswell to make myself sweat.Yes i do my minimum on different exercising but with no bike i upped each one a bit.Felt really good but miss my bike as it what breaks the sweat out of me at the end of hour exercise.
Today up this morning did my hour exercises and then went to Carlisle to get food and a swim aswell what i do each tuesday and thursday.
This morning first time ever in my life  i did swim 78 lengths of the 33metre pool .Been swimming 66lengths the last 16 time visit to the pool .But when friends of mine came in pool they said you going to do 70 lengths as i was only 30 lengths at that time.But with Jean and Alison saying that to me.I had to do for myself and them aswell.So i carried on and went passed 66 lengths and got past 70 lengths but me being me i carried on until my arms couldnt do any more.Yes first time in my life i did swim 78 lengths of the pool.
Been back home and with sweat still in me i did my hour exercise to get sweat out of me without bike.Hope tomorrow morning new friction belt will be here for bike then i can sweat as much as i can.
Sitting here writing this with my cup of tea and my choc chip cookies aswell  feeling proud of myself today.
                     Adrian

weekend comes to a end

This weekend been better than expected for myself.Even my team Liverpool beat Everton yesterday in the FA cup semi final.So my weekend was going better than expected.Yes i did write on here yesterday aswell about a bit of my past.As today its my lazy sunday chill out day.Done it in style and feel so good.With getting near the end of my chill out day  my weekend finished of perfect.
So now ready to end my lazy chill out day with a smile in my heart.
                     Adrian

Something about me

Been doing a lot thinking this week to myself.Not been in the mood to write until today.If you been reading my blog over the years you will sort of know what iam writing about now.

Back in 1998 relationship i was in was shit i was leaving the it with my daughter and step son when on the way home driving my car a bus hit my car.Thats when my life changed.Not just a few cuts i was dead two times and on life support 9 days aswell.In sort of bad way but something kepted me going.Now that was bad but the it killed me more than accident did to me.First day home after 19 days in hospital.The it grab my arm smacked my head of wall and left me lying there and walked away.But the its face went completely white after an hour when she came back and i was still alive.I said to the it a bus couldnt fucking kill me you no fucking chance it.Three months later she smashed big picture of elvis in living room and stabbed me in the throat with a piece of glass.It opened an air way through my throat.Everytime i breathed it the  oxygen replace my blood.Yes it was surgical emphysena its called.So every breath i took it compressed my lungs.The pain got so bad had to go to hospital.Very lucky i did not die.So again something kepted me going.

I got away from the it in the end up and she never killed but killed me more than the accident did.

With car accident and her nearly killing me.I came back home to rebuild my life.It taken some doing but what was holding back in my life no one could understand.Not even myself could.I was living my past in the future.

Everything i did each day was the past in the future.I tried to change and forget the past but it was so heavy on my shoulders it would not let me go forward in my life.The past was the future aaahhhhh. Until one day about 5 years ago i was walking Jerry lee and i got a feeling through my body nothing like i had ever before.It was the big weight lifted of my shoulders and my past was closed off.

As walking and back home i felt alive again with the past closed off.Even friends here noticed the difference in me.I felt like i had a new life again.The past what was holding me back was no more there.

It was such a relief to myself i could not belive it.As time went on and starting to see my future clearer with my past not holding me back.Rebuilding my life  from scratch with the big help from mum and dad and my daughter and Jerry Lee.Things did look better for me for which i was very grateful and iam stepping forward in my life not backwards anymore.

For so long me living my past in the future was just killing me slowly but since that day walking with Jerry Lee the feeling in my bones changed for the better.Now my past is closed off as its not the future.

Yes theses days things still hard to do but with having positive vibes back in it does help me.

So i got through it just and i take day by day and enjoy the best i can as we only live once well in my case a few times.My future is my future and i will make it the best i can.

                         Adrian 

Friday 6th April

This last week been sort of different for me but for the better.As things going to plan for me infact even better.Now this last few days been no any blips had happen to me.Feels great none at all.So no stress our pulling my hair out at all this last few days.Been a long time since i had the good feeling positive vibes back in me.Things just getting better for me nowadays.
Now the end of the week for me things going ok .The weekend is here.
                       Cat

End of lazy sunday day.

This weekend been sort of ok but again a few blips.But me with full of  positive vibes those blips are nothing to me.With my team Liverpool getting beat again today did get me down but we have a long way to recover from the last few crap seasons.Just will take time to rebuild Liverpool to being a strong team again.
As its the 1st of April  today my life is now a step forward to a brighter future for myself.As my planned missions of my personal life from the last month are completed.Now my personal private life is taking a step forward.Thank god as been on my wits end the last few weeks over my personal missions to get completed.
God hell it feels so good
As i said before no one can try and derail me not when iam full of positive vibes in me.
This next few months i will be here and there in different countries when i land there.Now some looks on some faces i cant wait to see them.

End of week for me !

This last week went sort of ok apart from a few blips.You see my plans coming together and feels real good.With no it getting in my way to stop me.The powerful positive vibes are flowing out of me this last few weeks.That makes thing i want to happen will happen for real.Being down so long in my life feels great to step forward in my life now and make things happen for real what i want.
You see i have been patient for a long time and its paid of now.Things in my life going forward and this next month of April will be even better as iam flying and moving aswell.Work and private life is going forward at long last its happened Great to have my old self back up and running again.
Also the sun been out this last week and my sun tan is back.As using my toys,swimming speed walking each day in the sun.Makes me even feel stronger in myself.With the positive vibes back in me is a great bonus to myself.

Midweek update

Well this week been different so far.Yes its been hot here with great sunshine each day so far.But myself things going to plan very well.Infact iam quite chuffed with myself they are.One more plan to finish off and then i will go on my mission and it will be completed.
One thing is let me tell you.You all can read my blog and comment if you like.But if you step on my toes or through a friend of mines toes in past or future.Our try and cause problems in my personal life to stop me.You will be an it
Iam real not just internet junkie.So it or its who is causing me shit in my personal life.You will meet me for real
Same with any it or its from my past you will meet me for real and then my mission with its is completed.
Also the next few weeks my life will change for the better as me .Then i will take the next step forward together my live.
                        Adrian

Start of a new week for me

My weekend went sort of ok and ok if you know what i mean.As for saturday it went from being up then down and deeper down but then back up again.Like a roller coaster.Hell it if was just a roller coaster it would be brill but it was not.It was my own feelings what where up and down like a yoyo.Even my team Liverpool got beat at Anfield aswell.
So saturday was going down like the Titanic for me but hold on saturday night i was picked back up out of the rut.By Jasmine and also my tunes aswell.You see saturday went good-bad-ugly all day.I couldnt wait for my lazy chill out sunday to start.Infact slepted very well and clocks went forward an hour aswell.I didnt wake up until 8.15am on my lazy day.Even the sun was out all day.Me sitting out front of my house getting my sun tan topped up and it was great feeling in my body.As sunday went on belive or not it went very well and no roller coaster ride with my feelings today yyeeaaahhhhhhh.
Sunday night over seeing dad then back home  i played powerful tunes here just as i was chilling out the best way to close my weekend off.
This next few weeks i know things will changed for me.My plans what i started last month are completed and just one more to finish of in 14 days time then my life will changed for the better for me.Dreams of mine  will be reality.
So its monday morning the sun is out it will get hotter here today and as for me my day will go even better.
                    Cat

End of week again

This last week things been sort of different for me.Something been happening to me since dec 2011 weird but i love it and in these next few weeks it will be reality to me for real.You see with no work i still have plans what i have and making them happen and so far they have.The next step in the next few weeks will happen for real.Now shock not just to me but to Jasmine aswell who is close to me.You see i will make what i want happen for real not just a dream.
Now the last 2 weeks for Jasmine not good as she caught flu virus there but today she is fighting the virus out of herself and she is nearly fully recovered.When she is here with me and if she gets the flu here hot toddy is a great cure to get rid of the virus.
Anyways my team Liverpool blew a good lead away and got beat by QPR  aaaahhhhhh on wednesday night.Still got a lot to do with Liverpool to get back into the winning ways again.
Now friday night here and tonight been different aswell and hell iam going to bed with a smile on my face.Thank you Jasmine.
Weekend is here all enjoy it the best you can as i will.
                                  Adrian

End of my weekend

This weekend went even better than i thought it would.Saturday with using my toys pushed myself a bit more aswell.Felt really good.Today on my lazy sunday chill out day.Not used any toys just chilled out all day. Jasmine is getting better aswell but the flu bug is taking some kicking out of her.Its going at push the flu bug will leave her.As her positive vibes are alive and kicking now kicking the flu bug  into touch.
Also today my team Liverpool beat Stoke 2-1 and through to the semis of the FAcup.So end of my weekend looking good and Jasmine is getting better aswell.Now iam all chilled out aswell and  ready for this next week to hit me with what ever it does.
                         Cat

Edinburgh Military Tattoo Massed Pipes and Drums

Friday night end of week 4 me ;-)

This last week things went better than expected for me.Apart from a blip on tuesday what got sorted by tuesday night.Thats why i had a bad feeling in my bones while i was swimming.But was sorted out the best possible way.
Aswell as that blip my team Liverpool did play better and they did beat Everton 3-0 with Gerrard scoring hatrick.Vast improvement than the 3 games prior to beating Everton.
So as my week went on and yes used my toys more and swimming 66 lengths in 33metre pool twice aswell.Even today as weather got wet and cold out chopping wood for dad with a smile on my face.
Yes its friday night the weekend is about here and as for me will be quiet as far as i know and Liverpool got Stoke on sunday afternoon at Anfield in the FA cup.
                     Cat

End of Cats weekend

My weekend went well and today my lazy chill out went perfect all as a tx i got at 7.32am kicked my lazy chill out day in the best possible way.Then an hour later another tx just tickled me.So made a call to awesome Jasmine and couldnt thank her enough.
Anyways one thing this weekend went with no stress from it or its for me and Jasmine.Made our weekend go better for us.Great feeling when you dont get stressed out from it or its.
Down fall of the weekend  is my team Liverpool got beat again now thats 3 in a row getting beat.Also we cannae score any goals either.Shit Kenny back to the drawing board and get them sorted oot.As we have Everton on tuesday night and we have to win cannae lose again.
Well weekend is closing off here for me and hope this next week will go according to plan and by friday night i should have a smile on my face for the better.
                    Cat

Its Friday

What i do and what i write about its all true.Now been writing my blog long time now.Yes i do know where i stand and what i can write legally.When any human stands on my toes from past or in the future.I call them it or its.That is what i use for real and on internet aswell.It or Its  means waste of good fucking skin.
What ever it or its iam writing about i will only reveal there real name etc after my mission is completed payback for them stepping on my toes or my family toes or my real friends toes.
That means i do not threaten on the internet to the it or its.As iam not a coward like them.What i do in future is see the look on the it or its faces when they walk into me.Then my mission against the it or its is completed.
Then i will publish the it or its real names,addresses,email and nic names etc what they use.Reference to which post i have written about on my website.
You see i have patience and that when an it or its step on my toes.What goes around comes around.
                          Adrian

Midweek update another it joined the club

Well another it has joined the club.You see the it stepped on my Jasmines toes and stepped on mine at the same time.You see my personal life is personal.The it has been reading my blog and making up his own lies about me to Jasmine.Now that does not make me very happy as it you do not know me at all and to criticize my personal life to Jasmine.All cause you are jealous as you it want Jasmine to yourself.But hold on it you are with Jasmines friend.You dropped hints for a while now to Jasmine by email,phone and tx but as you know Jasmine is in a real relationship with me.But you still try it on with her.But Jasmine is not stupid or a fool to fall to your cheap shit from you it.
As it you read my blog and criticize me hoping you can get Jasmine to yourself it.But your plan went wrong it.
You see it you stepped on my toes in a big way it using  Jasmine.As i dont take that lying down it.You can do what ever you want to me but you hurt my Jasmine you are a total it.
You can hide behind computer it but as i know your real name and address in USA and work you do .Means for real it you will walk into me and i will Glasgow Kiss You it.
                Adrian

Chill out sunday day of mine ;-)

This last week got me going with being full of positive vibes in me.Infact apart from two blips things went forward a step more than i thought it would.Feels great.
One thing is i know now in my life is want i want i will get.That means no if or ifs in my life.
What i set myself out to do is for myself  want i want and i will completely get.The last 3 months someone involved with me yes you Jasmine and i told you with no ifs or buts.We will be together quicker than you think.Yesterdays email what you sent to me made so proud thankyou Jasmine.
So Adrian here is on a few missions for himself to prove to himself he is not a failure.They are important missions infact one of them is so important i cant wait for it to be completed.So my brain cell been working hard this last week and this next week it will work harder then i can fly to complete the very important mission for my heart.
So as my lazy day goes on and hell no exercise and the sun is out aswell.Only down fall was yesterday my team Liverpool getting beat aaahhh.The rest of today with my tunes on to chill out on my lazy sunday day and will treat myself to a hot radox salts bath tonight.
                  Cat

bed of roses / Bon Jovi

     
 Just for you Jasmine xxx

End of week again for me

Since the weight has been lifted of my shoulders last weekend.Started on monday feeling alive again.Each day this last week been different for me with nothing holding me back after weight lifted of my shoulders.
Thursday what happened all day with me and Jasmine.Proved to me that i step forward with my head held up high.As no past weighted down on me anymore.My bone feelings are working right aswell as they woke me up early thursday about 3.30am telling me that Jasmine who is so close to me needed me there and then.From then on we talked and talked nearly all day to each other.At thursday night here we where both smiling in each others hearts.So the next step forward  for me and Jasmine is going perfect at moment.
This weekend is nearly here and after what happened to me last weekend i do not want to repeat this weekend.
But since the weight lifted of my shoulders iam full of positive vibes and i will handle anything easier now.
Also this last week tuesday swimming just done 58 lengths turned to start number 59 and that is when cramp set in on my left leg .Hell it was serious pain after a bit of gentle exercise i did manage to do 66 lengths.But it was not just cramp as when home the cramp triggered my left shin leg muscle to ripped.First ever time in my life to ever suffer cramp and ripped muscle at the same time.
With me i was learned when growing up to ignore physical pain.So the pain after cramp and muscle ripping i ignored the pain.So speed walking what i do was put on hold the last two days but still used my toys and also went swimming yesterday done 66 lengths but not use my left leg much as i have to careful not to cause anymore damage to the muscle.So my arms did more work when swimming.
Today up this morning used my toys and bike but no speed walk.But this morning was chopping wood and making my legs work better while swinging axe.So this afternoon i did use my toys and weights on ankles for speed walk.Iam ok my leg is nearly perfect and no sign of tearing muscle again.So should get my routine back up and running in the morning when i get up.
Learned to ignore physical pain in my life worked this last thank god.
Just thinking there dont know why but hell i fancy some garlic bread now.So will make it with my dinner with garlic dripping of bread when i eat it with my dinner.mmuuwwwaahhhh
Have a good weekend all of you out there.TTFN
                          Cat

Midweek update for me..

Since monday morning the positive vibes are flowing out of me.Its now wednesday night and iam on form.One thing is got a wee bit up my nose i must have been to fucking soft in the past dont people who are close to me relise iam fucking real.Iam not an easy touch to use me now  like they done to me in the past.
Yes the old Adrian is back and hell it feels good.Now iam going forward in my life and no fucking it or its will fucking stop me now.
You see i have so much anger in me what it and its done to me in the past but hold on its the past and not the future.Iam better than the it and its but as we say what goes around comes around and  the it+its will know when it hits them.
Tonight added pics to here on my blog aswell and i will write a bit more aswell in the future on here.One thing is that iam real not just a internet geek.i do have my real life away from the internet.That means iam real and you just have to accept it iam real.If you just think just an internet geek then you are wrong.There is the door walk away .
Thats means Adrian here got his weight lifted of his shoulders last weekend.That only happened when Jasmine wanted to test me to see if iam worth while to be with! She didnt relise she lifted the weight of my shoulders whats been holding me back for years.I did not run of and shag another woman just like that as Jasmine thought testing me to the limit i would do that to her.Well blow me to god i did not.So nearly 3 months with Jasmine and as we both had the bad relationships in our past.So Jasmine tested me and did not know it helped me in a big way of lifting that weight of my shoulders.As i never stepped over the line to break the trust between me and Jasmine.Trust is very valuable in a relationship.
Monday morning when i woke up i knew then. The trust i had in women what was burnt out of me from the past relationships was gone out of my life. I felt really alive again no weight on my shoulders.You see what i wrote on monday i mean it.What i want i will make it happen no more excuses or if this or if that.
Long time since i felt like this in myself and hell it feels good Adrian has been released and out to play yessssss
Ok what i done in the past i cant change it but the future is the future and not the past.My past in relationships is closed off now and iam free of that weight of my shoulders.
Jasmine now you will see the real me as no weight on my shoulders holding me back from our next step with our relationship my trust is with you now Jasmine.
To myself i have a lot to do to get me rock and rolling again but the buzz is back in me now.So its all forward from now on.Positive vibes are bouncing in me with no site of negative vibes.I feel so relived now that weight of my shoulders feels like iam alive again.
A lot out there will see the difference in me either you like it or not your choice..
First time in my life while  swimming on tuesday i got cramp in my left shin muscle on the 59 length.By fucking hell it hurt.It went from left shin muscle up to thigh.I got out and gentle exercise to relise the pain from the cramp.Got back in the pool and i pushed myself to get to 66 lengths.Since i been back home could only do gentle exercises as i dont want to rupture leg muscle more.Its still not 100% right but in morning will do my hour exercise and hope it bit of luck it will be ok.Then i will go for a swim and not get cramp this time.
Well wednesday night getting on time for brew and to chill out the rest of the night for me.
                            Adrian

Weight lifted of at long last

Monday morning and after a weekend with my inner self.I woke up this morning with my slate cleaned that means that the weight on my shoulders is now lifted off.It taken a long time in my personal life for that to be lifted of my shoulders.Its been holding back a long time.Now with it gone from me i can let my positive vibes work and take the next step in my life.That means no more ' if ' situations and be put on hold and have to wait.For so long in my past personal life it held me back all the time.Now with that gone from me.I will use my positive vibes in me now to make things happen what i really want for real.
I only live once and must enjoy it the best i can and from now on i will seeing that big weight is lifted of my shoulders.
         Adrian

End of Cats Lazy Sunday Chill Out Day

This weekend been sort of different for me.With starting of with my head in bits on saturday morning after friday night.No alcohol involved.But as saturday morning  started even the rain stopped my speed walk twice.The day not going very well at all.It was my past relationships what was causing the problem.Making me think Jasmine would do the same to me.What they done to me.But light at the end of the tunnel and a great talk with Jasmine for hours on saturday night sort my head out what was in bits and pieces on saturday morning.

Sunday morning i woke up with a real good sleep and the sun was out aswell.Over at my dads and went to the shop aswell.Made a phone call to Jasmine and thanked her for last night with the powerful talking with me and that i do love you Jasmine.As the day went on we talked and even tonight as my trust is in Jasmine 100% just making me have more positive vibes in me. 

Now sunday night i will have now a hot radox salts bath then hit my bed.So in the morning i will wake up with positive vibes in me.

              Cat

Its Saturday means weekend is here

This last week things sort of changed for me in all ways.Start of this last week my feelings in my bones wasnt right but where right.Monday night my bone feeling was sorted out to the good feeling in my bones.When its just a bad feeling in my bones i can handle it but when good and bad feeling in my bones take some doing to get it sorted out.It was all down to what happened last weekend and spilled into monday.Tuesday morning it was all ok thankgod for that.
Tuesday as i do swim and for the second week in a row i swim 66 lengths tuesday and thursday.It felt good and after thursday swim my body is adjusting to doing 66 lengths for a while now.
As the week went on things went sort of well for me.
There was a part of my  personal side of me improved for the better.My past is closing off as its not the future.But yesterday and today past relationships was biting me.You see being used in the past and my trust in women was burnt out of me.December 2011 things changed for me in relationship status.This last few days and this morning the past negative relationship vibes.Made me scared but Jasmine help me kick those negative vibes in to touch.As she was just herself and never did anything to hurt me at all.It was all my past relationships what made me think she would.Sitting here writing this makes me see that Jasmine i can trust as she is my future with me not from the past.
So the situation is with me and Jasmine is when we are both ready to take the next step in the relationship.Meaning that very soon there or here or where ever it will be that we will be together for real life.
So the weekend is here and never guess what weather is not good today and another weekend for me with no alcohol.Twice today going out on my speed walk but couldnt as rain is belting down.So plan B for exercise this afternoon.
Tomorrow is my sunday lazy day to chill out all day

Cats weekend to close

This weekend been going ok apart my team Liverpool getting beat aaahhhhhhh.
Today being my lazy sunday chill out day started of well.As i woke up about 8.26am on my lazy day had breakfast then went to see my dad and he was ok aswell.The rest of today went better as listened to music but since i did something last week for the first time in my life i had the buzz in me.
My lazy day was about to change :-)
I was so full of energy i had to burn it of me but hold on its my lazy sunday chill out day !
Being here alone full of energy all day i need to do something to stop me getting bored alone !
So after a bit thought i will use my toys even though i dont on a sunday.So tunes went on and i started to use my toys.It took a while before i started to sweat .But then i got going and my toys where working in full throttle.
The sweat came of me i did not do my speed walk.So i carried on using my toys and sweated more yessssss
Infact i did push myself more using my toys feels even better.
After 3 times using my toys i burned some energy of me to stop me getting bored alone here at home.
Infact since i hit 66 lengths swimming last week i got the buzz back in me and feels really good.I want more !!
So my weekend went very well for me and iam ready for this next week.
                      Cat